Att gråta och att skratta

To cry and to laugh. This is what comes to mind when I read the book from Anders Paulrud - Ett ögonblicks verk-. 
And also when I think about december-time. 

The book is a drama of a childhood, a lovestory of a strong man and about a survivour and fighter in hard times, just like ours. It's about how to grow and what you make of it and how long it takes to understand things truely. It is about that your future is not only made of your past and what has happend to you. It is also what you think. 

In this book you will be remind that there are memories in life and things you forgot, but also things you'll never forget but can't call memores as they have become part of you, live inside you for good or for worse. 

This book also tells us about a time, most of us born after 1950 don't know about but we can learn from that time as just now many things are very similar to what it has been then. 

A very passionate book, a happy book, a page turner and something to bite in. A book which will make you angry and then hopeful too. It will make you look at yourself and wonder where you stand. 

Sadly as far as I know you can only read it in swedish. Could not find any sign that it came out in another language, but maybe my google is lazy. 

If you find the english version, write me and I will put it up here, so you can read the book in english or so too. It's a little but fine book and once you've started, you know you have a wonderful written experience in your hand. 

Anyway, this book made me think more about december. A month where the days get shorter the dark nights darker and longer and the days in most parts of the world colder. The depression is waveving at us and we have to be careful not to let it in. Many people get sad or stressed. But there are also happy moments when we think about christmas is coming and seeing friends and when we sing together, come together to celebrate. Many times people gather together with the family however big this family may be and we have the mix of everything there. The good and the bad. 

Then we cry of laughter, cry of sadness. We laugh because we are happy or just lucky. We talk about what we want, where we are and if this is makig us happy. Sometimes we are scared of the facts we put together, sometimes we realise that change is gonna come no matter what. Sometimes we talk about death and how we want to die and what people should do with us then. We talk about politics and how we are not happy with it. We wonder about the question of learning from mistakes. 

But we also talk about how happy we are to be alive, how long we have survived and what wonderful gifts we've got. We talk about how grateful we are to have a home, to know that we can go the way we want and make the choice we need. We will be happy to have changed sometimes or moved to another place. 

Maybe after a stressful day we are just happy to have a cup of hot chocolade in the dark afternoon under the candle light. December is not only a cold and freezing time. It can be also very romantic. Can be a reason to stay home and cuddle and watch a movie. 

Maybe then, we understand that things don't have to be perfect to feel perfect. 

Happy holidays , merry christmas and have a wonderful advent time. (be sure it is not my last post this year- so don't worry ;-)..)

LOVE & LIGHT