Att gråta och att skratta

To cry and to laugh. This is what comes to mind when I read the book from Anders Paulrud - Ett ögonblicks verk-. 
And also when I think about december-time. 

The book is a drama of a childhood, a lovestory of a strong man and about a survivour and fighter in hard times, just like ours. It's about how to grow and what you make of it and how long it takes to understand things truely. It is about that your future is not only made of your past and what has happend to you. It is also what you think. 

In this book you will be remind that there are memories in life and things you forgot, but also things you'll never forget but can't call memores as they have become part of you, live inside you for good or for worse. 

This book also tells us about a time, most of us born after 1950 don't know about but we can learn from that time as just now many things are very similar to what it has been then. 

A very passionate book, a happy book, a page turner and something to bite in. A book which will make you angry and then hopeful too. It will make you look at yourself and wonder where you stand. 

Sadly as far as I know you can only read it in swedish. Could not find any sign that it came out in another language, but maybe my google is lazy. 

If you find the english version, write me and I will put it up here, so you can read the book in english or so too. It's a little but fine book and once you've started, you know you have a wonderful written experience in your hand. 

Anyway, this book made me think more about december. A month where the days get shorter the dark nights darker and longer and the days in most parts of the world colder. The depression is waveving at us and we have to be careful not to let it in. Many people get sad or stressed. But there are also happy moments when we think about christmas is coming and seeing friends and when we sing together, come together to celebrate. Many times people gather together with the family however big this family may be and we have the mix of everything there. The good and the bad. 

Then we cry of laughter, cry of sadness. We laugh because we are happy or just lucky. We talk about what we want, where we are and if this is makig us happy. Sometimes we are scared of the facts we put together, sometimes we realise that change is gonna come no matter what. Sometimes we talk about death and how we want to die and what people should do with us then. We talk about politics and how we are not happy with it. We wonder about the question of learning from mistakes. 

But we also talk about how happy we are to be alive, how long we have survived and what wonderful gifts we've got. We talk about how grateful we are to have a home, to know that we can go the way we want and make the choice we need. We will be happy to have changed sometimes or moved to another place. 

Maybe after a stressful day we are just happy to have a cup of hot chocolade in the dark afternoon under the candle light. December is not only a cold and freezing time. It can be also very romantic. Can be a reason to stay home and cuddle and watch a movie. 

Maybe then, we understand that things don't have to be perfect to feel perfect. 

Happy holidays , merry christmas and have a wonderful advent time. (be sure it is not my last post this year- so don't worry ;-)..)

LOVE & LIGHT

a little funny thing

Yes this happened to me once too. I was not crying but hell was I like, where is my mobile??!!!! I searched and searched and then I took my phone and ringed my mobile and while I was waiting to hear it came to me- O-oh.... I put it on silent the other day, because I had an interview. Shit.... 
Immediately I stopped calling myself and went on searching and we all know how a mess we are without these little things nowadays. Our affection is so strong even know that we can live without a mobile we forgot somehow in the same time. Do we really write down our numbers we have saved in that thing? No we know we should, but most of us never do. How often do I read on Facebook- please send me a "Personal Message" with your mobile number, my has broken - or like this-..... It's hilarious to watch ourself running through our flat and engage our hair and sweat like we did the hardest workout in our live. The pulse is on 180 and our eyes looks like bigger then the stars in the sky when we look in the mirror for a second.
And remember when you have found it- how happy you are and how fast you calm down and the day is saved. You had already planed the alarm clock and what call you must make to shut down the mobile and etc... Oh how happy you are, after all the jumping around and you ignore perfectly that your flat looks like a bomb has exploded inside now. 
Yeah, I see you smiling now... that's good... a smile a day, keeps the doctor away... ;-)

Love & Light

Meeting Amma...

Amma was in Berlin... not long ago for three days... Amma was hug Berlin... like they said... 
Who is Amma? She is an Guru from India, very well known there... She is doing now a European tour to tell about her work, to pray and chant with you and make people come together for makin' this world a better place and she hugs... everyone who wants to get hug... 

Her work is big... mostly she spends money, time and work in India, but also all around the world... She has many projects and these projects are very different... you know, she opens schools, gives cloths for people, let build houses for poor, do things for a healthy lifestile and helps to keep bringing people together for eliminating environmental problems. She also try to help to keep people in a culture exchange.. for makin' a better understanding of us or the other side...
She also helps project on your place to get a public presence... 

Of course she is not doing all the work alone... She has a lot of helpers... they work mostly for free... She also has never to think about wealthy problems like we have to do in our every day live... 
This would be to much, if she would also do the rest... fortunately she has big luck with her helpers, cos she has to trust them in every way... You know, some Gurus had to get away, cos someone tried to steal the money for them self people had donated... 
Amma self started as a child to just simply hug people and help... 
If you want to know more about her way look at www.amma.de or try to google under her name...

It is interesting how different people react when they meet her... and more if she is visiting us... How do people react here in Europe... and how in Germany?
I was the second night there... It started with her coming in and touching the first hands of -I call them fans-....cos they went high when she touched them... and then she did the first ceremony of the night... 
After arriving on stage they started talkin' about her work, going on with talking about how we can change, how we can make things better, why we are afraid and how we act because of this, how we can enlighten us more and more and help each other to live more in love and peace... the we did the chanting, the prayers and a meditation. 

I must say, I heard from a friend, she was good and it was so great.. seems the first day the mix of people was more heterogeneous... Cos at my night all kind of people where there... Old, young, poor, kids, rich, not so rich, hindu, christian and atheists... That was a sign or better this was what makes the night....
I did not really expect something special...
I was more like, let's see, how it will be, how I feel... 
Well, I think, this mix we had made it hard to get this picture you know from films or documentation, where all are high and celebrating, waving and smiling, crying and seem to feel the same.... It was very much like, we had a bit of every reaction and it was like two people in extase there and then three women getting bored and then the kids sleeping or another one was playing, a guy was not at all chanting and seemed not to get touched of it but he was obviously a serious hindu... The chanting went from that Amma did all the work and then some people where connecting to her, so it became more a common thing, but then it was again, only her doing all the action and the musician... We could read a translation of the prayers and chants we did... Some of them I liked, but some of them I really did not think I will ever tell a word or repeat... simple because I do not believe in the things they say... 
The finish of all this was with a meditation which was right for the most.
For me it was the wrongest thing at that point.. The guy who lead us started it and then he said some words and I was like, o.k. I'm out... Yes some words he chose made me feel like..no no no...
Actually for me most of the time I was more like someone who was watching and seeing many little things ---but for me and it seems we had a lot of Berlin people... it was, no..it is.. well, most of us in Berlin are not so impressed of popular people around us... 
That's why a lot of the celeb likes to be in our town, cos we simple mostly just don't care about them... 
So, so many of the visitors where that night like this... "yeah, she did greet work, but yeah she is just human.. will her hug be so special????"
Will it be? That was a question, cos I know from people who never believed a thing about all the circus were touched at the end... They had the feeling of needing to cry and yes when it is about the hug... many people did react with a cry, a smile or just could not believe it, but also so many were like.. "well, that was it.. mmh, not much.. to be true..  I felt nothing special..."

It is actually a big thing to be able to hug everyone in the world.... but the real greatness is, when you are also able to be hugged by a stranger.. cos this means you let someone go inside your security zone...
Amma can't effort this and I think it's more because of the question of time... She gonna hug a thousand a day or even much more.. you have to wait for a twenty second hug or so... I was like: "Well, I gotta try to hug her, give her something.. just because I do... "

And I did... but am sure she also did not realized it... 
To be correct.. she is trying her best and telling in every language that she gives you her love... even if it's just for a second... 
This second did for some people make a difference... 
I just saw the welding spot on her clothing who came from all the people before me and then I did what I wanted and heard her telling something cos I could not understand it because of my hearing aids... they made what they use to in such situation.. making a noise.... music... they pipe.. 
The words Amma said -I have been told of a young women I got to know there on the event... in the Velodrom in Berlin.

At least all in a hurry it went, but also it was a long waiting time... interesting to see all those people coming together and watch it like a journalist all this happen... 
I would not say this was bad... it is just me and my view... so all I can say is... If you wanna know how it is for you... Go to her, met her, make your own experience and see if it will help you or not or if this is just something you pass but you can also say then.. I tried it.... I now know.... whatever this will be for you... just go...

the toilets were also beloved..:-)

Just now she is in Paris in the Hall Saint Martin
Then she will be in London, Houten (Utrecht), Toulon, Barcelona, again in Germany and Milano, Dublin and so on.... see under www.amma.org.uk or so on..

LOVE & LIGHT