IGNAZ/ MAURICE

My experience with a cat named Maurice.

In the spring of this year, a new friend came into my life. Actually I knew him a bit longer but he did not stayed with me. A little friend on whose example you can see, it's never too late to change anything. Even cats can do so.

Where should i start? Maurice was not even called Maurice before he came to me. His name was Ignaz. Not avery nice name and so you can certainly imagine that only a few liked it. This could also explain why many where approaching perhaps with less sympathy for the cat.

But on the other hand Maurice/ Ignaz was a bit of a challenge, a fighter cat in the truest sense of the words.

Many where afraid of him. If you came to him to quickly, or even less than a half meter, so was attacking his best defense. He not only screamed loudly, he struck it.

No wonder that there where just little few who could get along with the cat. But now, back to the roots........................................................

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Maurice is born in Munich 11 years ago somewhere in that town. My friend who was the first to have this cat found him in a dark Basement. Left alone and about 8 weeks old. No family was in sight no one who was missing a cat. So he kept him and took him home. He gave him the name Ignaz and still I don't know why... at turns out very soon that the cat has some unusual ways to act but in the beginning it just didn't seem to be a big problem. With the time it became clearer that it was maybe a bit of a challenge to deal.

But so was he a fighter too... after all he was little and alone and had not much to eat when he was found- he survived year after year and then my friend moved to Berlin and so the cat.

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You know, cats don't like it much to move from one place to another but they can deal with a lot so moving to Berlin and living in different places here - he was dealing gooooood with it.

But he was still not easy to be with together... not a cat to play with, or to have fun with a lot. He never really liked other people then my friend who saved him. He never accepted a scratching tree, never has eaten grass for cats or even let himself stroking from other people and so he never liked other animals around him, not even cats.

But then I get to know him and from the very first sight we had fights and he found someone in me which he started to respect cos I never let him go with what he has done. So everything got a response and a lot of these- no... he didn't really liked it but he learned ....

....and then my friend from Munich needed someone to take care of his cat

..and so I was a cat sitter... two times for a couple of weeks and yes on of these two times I lived with him together...
But how does he came to me then? Well my dear friend fell in Love... and two people sometimes want to live together but Ignaz/ Maurice could not live together with other cats and yes my friends companion has already been with three cats. So.. one against three. And because I was the only one who could deal with such a cat, I got asked if I could... mmh you know..

Finally I sad yes and though I could try and maybe this cat will be a lovely one at the end.

To make a long story short.... I made it.... a new name, a new home, new rules and I got the best example how a cat can change....

Well it was a challenge I was not sure in the beginning I could win or something like that but now this wild Tiger became a cuddly cat, well not exactly but very near to that...

But, unfortunately, showed up on time, that my apartment was too small for us two, and I developed an allergic reaction to it. Sad but true, he needed a new home and I was so afraid I have to leave him at the animal shelter. It turns out on the way that Berlin has much to many cats without a home. No matter where I was looking... full house.

How lucky I was when I heard of a man who said he will try with a second cat. Well I said, it's always worth a try, because Maurice now was different to what he was then. So after eleven weeks living at my place he came in a transport box (which he never done before because he never was able to get in) to a new home with more space and another cat.

... and... he was so calm and nice and lovely... took this new home so ... well it was still much of a surprise he had no problem with an other cat and and the days after it shows he was able to stay there and... he came to you, never run away like before, never screamed and stroking was not a problem at all and he also took the scratching tree and eat grass for cats... I was doing god, so he was too...

But live goes on and you plan to visit him from time to time but somehow it never really came to be more than two times.

Now I heard that he has died a couple of days ago... maybe it was a heart attack but that doesn't matter....

... and yes I am a little bit sad now... he was just a few weeks a guest in my home, but I loved him, not really from the beginning but with the time we spend together...

...so my dear Maurice rest in Peace...

R.I.P Ignaz/ Maurice 2000-2011

LOVE & LIGHT

Another Day in Paradise

Hej folks,

this is about a day I was up in the air and down to town...

Let's start the day with a fly in the sky... but before we could do this we had to leave one of the cars we drove on the little airport we would be at the afternoon same day, so we can drive home again.

Like you see the weather does not seem to be on our side, it was cloudy, windy, rainy... but we though it can only get better, so we took the second car and drove three hours to the other airport, where the plan was we wanted to take, to fly with....

so.... after three hours sittin' on a little back seat of the car, I was able to move my legs again and stretch myself in all directions... was nice..:-)

But we did not have so much time to rest. First we made a plan of the route and gave this to the towers and then we made a call to the first tower, so that they knew when we're gonna start...

and here you see how strong the wind blows

and where the wind came from....

and so you see one of the planes which are able to fly, but this one will not be mine....
yes we're nearby Ljungbyhed... deep down in the south of Sweden... and yes I could hear the dialect they've spoken cos we had a flying teacher with us.. a very nice guy and one of those who shows.. you're never to old to try...

like you see on the pic.. you have to make calls before you start to fly... and every area you fly over has its own frequency... so when you fly you have to go to the frequency you can reach a tower and that's like about every ten minutes another one..

and so here you see the plane I gotta fly with.. well was flying with...

the captain...checks all out...

and so we where up into the sky....

never though you have to do so much as a captain on a plane.. and yes.. you really have to learn much... it's not all the technology, also the clouds- how they are,how they move, how they will be next and so on.. of course all the laws and rules too...

...but flying high.. is great... love it...:-)

can this be Änglehom? Nej, but we flew very close around it, this is just a village ... a nice one- but we flew over Laholm and Tjärby and then over fields, forests, rivers and the sun came out and the rain was back and maybe around, sometimes we flew through little rain, but never through a cloud...

and here you see Halmstad....:-)

and the ocean is not far away... look on the left side...
still Halmstad, but it just took a view minutes to fly past...

can you see it..? the little rainbow part?
well, here you get a better one... isn't it lovely?
and while the propellers are working diligently, it shakes me a little by and my captain told me this and that and thanks to the headphones the

understanding is also pretty good....

and still the captain is doin' well as so the guest...

and after about 45 min it all ends..... our runway is in sight

and like with the start so was it a bit of a surprise that it all was just a short action... I though to start and to land would take a longer time.. no.. I was wrong...

and here we are back and the sun is shinin' like it was the most beautiful day... like in Paradise.... sometimes it starts with a bit rain and ends with sun...

and yes ..finally time to hide.... to cut of water... usch... ;-)

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And Here We Start The Afternoon... in town, back in town.... Gothenburg...

Ferris wheel at the port....

and the Hostel Ship on the river....and the "Lipstick" on the right side....

...came the sunnytime....
warm and slow and the wind was blowin' a bit..

.....can you see the tower in the windows of the opera house????
WEST SIDE STORY is goin' to be up next here..

and while I took a walk with a very dear friend of mine, this looks so romantic in the afterglow..

but don't look to closely...
oh what a picture.. the sky was so dramatic everywhere I was lookin' around...

...... hade you fun.. I hade it... thanxxs .... yes am very grateful... once again..

LOVE and LIGHT

Patrik 1,5

Because I am flying in a few days to my second home again I had recently watched a Swedish movie on DVD to refresh my Swedish. The film is called "Patrik 1.5" and is about adoption by a gay couple, but something is different than expected. As in real life too and that made me think of friends who might get a child within surrogacy or about a couple some can expect a child soon, to whom they can give a home. Both couples are lovely and I really which the best for them but for now both got other problems to get through.

And so I think about that in Germany there is even difficult for heterosexuals to adopt and surrogacy is banned at all. Which means you have to look for a mother outside the country and can't even be sure that the child will be yours 'cos the law.

For myself, as a single in a long period of time, the question of having a child is certainly one with two sides. Surely we can adopt their own, but it costs a lot of power and money and is considering the current situation probably greater responsibility and challenge than they did 30 years ago. On the other side, I was never thinkin' about adoption of children alone, always wanted to to it with a life partner.

The reality now is, it's even hard to adopt as a gay couple in Germany and the laws are not much better then ten years ago and moreover, many countries don't want to adopt children to gays. But above this, you try to plan and to explain how you would do the things you have to do when you have children, but then... what if situation changes? The laws are not on your side....

What if.... have you enough friends to help you, enough strength to go through, your parents still behind you?

Still so many people never think about this and just have children, no matter what and sometimes they have them just because it just happens, never was planed but couldn't change.

Am I thinkin' to much of it and do worry to much, cos life can always change in a way you never planed?

When you look at friends which are goin' through some mad and when you look around and see how difficult it can be to educate your child, or all the people which still think a child should only grow up with a mother and a father, it might seem you got a lot of warning.

So... still no Partner in sigth... Should I let this go forever and let it be... just be someone who never will have children like some others too, like a Girlfriend who is now too old???

But everytime I read about this and see a film about it -it's like a wake up call and I think, I would like to be parent. I'm sure I can be a good one.

Well I'm much aware of the fact that this is not the most important problem in the world.

And yes, I'll always say let's see how the way of life goes- the world will not go under because of this.

LOVE & LIGTH

A Song I wrote... inspired by my last post

DEAR POPE

Kiss kiss I want to kiss

but you say I shouldn't

Kiss kiss I want to kiss

but you say I come into hell

Kiss kiss I want to kiss

but you say you know the right way

Kiss kiss I want to kiss

but how dare you to say

my love is a wrong way

...

you are true with what you say

you are the only one who knows best...

oh how dare you to tell me about what's right from wrong

how dare you to tell me I should only sing your song

what makes it better to live your way when all you say seems to be a lie...

what do you know about the end of time...

Kiss kiss I want to kiss

but you say I shouldn't

Kiss kiss I want to kiss

but you say I come into hell

Kiss kiss I want to kiss

but you say you know the right way

Kiss kiss I want to kiss

but how dare you to say

my love is a wrong way

when we have found out long ago

Love's the only way... all you need... to show

when we have nothing more to say

then just livin' a lovin' way and just to follow

the sunlight, the kiss of a sunshine

so tell me how can you say... how do you dare

how can you call me evil, if you're not even far from

...from being evil self- no you're livin' on a shell

to blind to see and unwilling to hear.. you are

to blind to realize that you act like the one you say you're against...

to blind to realize that you should live with body, soul and mind

to blind to live that lovin' life to see you're just a human child

so how dare you

how dare you to tell me

if you're not livin' as the words you speak...

mmh...

mmmmh...

that's why I want to to kiss, to show my love and ask you

why are you tellin' me you speak for us...?

mmmmm.....mmmmmmh...

Kiss kiss I want to kiss

but you say I shouldn't (shut up)

Kiss kiss I want to kiss

but you say I come into hell (no way)

Kiss kiss I want to kiss

but you say you know the right way (how can you)

Kiss kiss I want to kiss

but how dare you to say

my love is the wrong way (just listen..one time..)

stop talkin'

stop talkin'

to me unless we see, you really live the way you preach...

till then...

Kiss kiss I want to kiss

...my guy

Kiss kiss I want to kiss

...my child

Kiss kiss I want to kiss

...my life

Kiss kiss I want to kiss

...my brothers and sisters

...my kind

but how dare you to say

my love is a wrong way (so just listen..this time...)

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TOM/ Berlin, Sept.2011

22. September and the Pope is on...

Hej folks,

a view days ago a friend of mine said we have so many other problems, but to demonstrate against the Pope. Well, on the one hand he's right but on the other hand I'm not agreeing with him. First I do not demonstrate agains the Pope... nor do I demonstrate against anything, because being against something does not help, it just gives you what you don't want so... what am I doing then? I'll go on the street to fight for something, for what I stand for, to say what I think and to ask...

Second, yes first we should look at our house, the problems on our doorstep but one reason we have these problems leeds as back in time and to the church and what they used to say and still say... guess I don't have to tell you about the past and yes I know many of our priests see things differently and acting contrary to what the Pope says or convert it from. But still... still take a look how can it be that some of the members of the church think that it's more worse that the fact that children have been abused by some of them came out and not the fact self.. they were more concerned that the image could suffer damage to the church than about the welfare of children.

Or how can the Catholic Church build a house of God in the poorest countries build out of pure marble and gold, in the middle of the desert, in front of all the poor people who need help, need food, a guide and a teacher...? We all know that the Vatican Bank is the richest bank in the world and yet the Pope is not much of it from, but still want to donate more. You could feed the world, but do not do it. Just empty words of help, of charity, of respect for human dignity ...?

And how can we all be equal, if the Pope tells us we can find Jesus only through the route of Catholics, otherwise we will not get the benefit of God felt. How can we all be equal, if the pope himself but actually increased, and a human like us?

Last but not least I fight for the right to love the way I want to , I am.. a naturally way of love- 'cos I think loves one of the greatest things in the world...

Oh before I forget... many people here in germany think it's o.k. when the pope comes to visit us and tell his story but what the hell has he to do in the german "Bundestag"???? He is not comin' as a Representatives or President of a country, but as head of the Catholic Church. So it is against all the rules in a speech to the Bundestag. We wonder why the politicians have agreed to this. How can you give someone such an important place, with the dictatorships in Africa is good?

But this is maybe a thing for another blog.

So folks, I stand up for more then one reason, show myself on the streets of live to show that I am a human with body, soul and mind... so I will be part of the -kiss in- part of the wall which the Pope has to pass.

With ...

LOVE & LIGHT

Hello again!

Hello again,

after a long, long time and yes, first time in english but be sure I will write in german too the next time but now I must confess that I decided to write more then only about my time in Sweden.

Now -like a good friend of mine- I will write about anything and like he is saying... no topic is taboo...:-)

Well I am still back in Germany, but Sweden is still part

of my life and I am still thinkin' about trying it once again later... and yes I can surly say that I am home in Berlin as so in Gothenborg.

So when I visit my friends there- it's almost like comin' home.

But I was thinkin' since a long time ago to write about other things too... share my point of view and maybe we have something in common.

Guess most time I'll write in german, 'cos my english is not that good as I wish it should be and when I speak it's better but that depends on friends... sometimes I do sound strange because some friends makes me unsure of how to speak it out... funny at last if you think about, 'cos it doesn't really matter how you do, you always can learn and nobody has to be perfect..I know..:-)

Anyway... next time I will start writin' about art, music, politics, things that I am thinkin' about, things I want to share, books, films, fashion, healthy, way of livin' and so on...

LOVE & LIGHT...