Patrik 1,5

Because I am flying in a few days to my second home again I had recently watched a Swedish movie on DVD to refresh my Swedish. The film is called "Patrik 1.5" and is about adoption by a gay couple, but something is different than expected. As in real life too and that made me think of friends who might get a child within surrogacy or about a couple some can expect a child soon, to whom they can give a home. Both couples are lovely and I really which the best for them but for now both got other problems to get through.

And so I think about that in Germany there is even difficult for heterosexuals to adopt and surrogacy is banned at all. Which means you have to look for a mother outside the country and can't even be sure that the child will be yours 'cos the law.

For myself, as a single in a long period of time, the question of having a child is certainly one with two sides. Surely we can adopt their own, but it costs a lot of power and money and is considering the current situation probably greater responsibility and challenge than they did 30 years ago. On the other side, I was never thinkin' about adoption of children alone, always wanted to to it with a life partner.

The reality now is, it's even hard to adopt as a gay couple in Germany and the laws are not much better then ten years ago and moreover, many countries don't want to adopt children to gays. But above this, you try to plan and to explain how you would do the things you have to do when you have children, but then... what if situation changes? The laws are not on your side....

What if.... have you enough friends to help you, enough strength to go through, your parents still behind you?

Still so many people never think about this and just have children, no matter what and sometimes they have them just because it just happens, never was planed but couldn't change.

Am I thinkin' to much of it and do worry to much, cos life can always change in a way you never planed?

When you look at friends which are goin' through some mad and when you look around and see how difficult it can be to educate your child, or all the people which still think a child should only grow up with a mother and a father, it might seem you got a lot of warning.

So... still no Partner in sigth... Should I let this go forever and let it be... just be someone who never will have children like some others too, like a Girlfriend who is now too old???

But everytime I read about this and see a film about it -it's like a wake up call and I think, I would like to be parent. I'm sure I can be a good one.

Well I'm much aware of the fact that this is not the most important problem in the world.

And yes, I'll always say let's see how the way of life goes- the world will not go under because of this.

LOVE & LIGTH