Stonwall

On the night from the 27. till the 28. June 1969 in Christopher Street started the first real protest against the oppression from the police. Violence was the answer. Enough is enough was the answer. Queer people showed that they are indeed people as everyone else. They are not only week and have wigs and are easy to harm. They can fight for the right to dance, to live, to love as it is the most natural thing in the world. Being part of society means to live free and be what you are instead of hide and feel ashamed. Being people and love another people is very natural and can never be sick. Because Love is Love, meaning- it's a chemical reaction, it's a physical attraction, it's in your gene, it's what we all can feel, if we live with an open heart and it's a spiritual reaction and practice. 
So violence was the answer cos they were not heard before. 
And today after- let's think about, after 45 years, are we on a better way?
Yes, in many ways and many countries but also no in many ways and countries. In some it even becomes worse. 
In 77 countries homosexuality is still forbidden and will get you in prison or even dead. 
77 countries where they hide, live in fear, fight in the background, fight in the dark, need to believe that they have a chance to be taken as a man of the world worth living and get no harm, no matter if an other man think this is right or not because he does not understand that it is natural because this man just believes in what he had heard and believes what he has read or not, or because he just think he can pic a sentence out of the bible and claim we have to live that way, thought he never read the hole passage and understood that the bible is not a book to pic what you like or not but more a history document to read and see an idea of living and stories to safe live and that this book was written in a time where we lived t.ex. in the desert and after all that this book is written so many years after Jesus died and is not written from one single person and the not even chronologically and it took like 300 years to write all the passages and then after all not all who were written have stayed in the book at last. 
But I am drifting away.
We have come a long way since that but after 45 years it feels not that much, because just now we realize that so much was hidden and is vulnerable. 
The open homophobia is breaking out and that's a god thing because now we actually know. 
Yes in the beginning we have been ignored. Then people laughed about us. Since Stonewall they openly fight us and this is the last phase before people learn to understand us and take us for real.
But just now they fight us harder then since a long time. They beat us, smash us and try to kill us. For what? For blindness, stupidity, and for the reason that they are unknown to the subject and lost empathy. 
Because if they had empathy they would never do this. 
So let's teach them empathy, love and difference as in the same time equality. 
Let's teach them to think with mind, body and soul.
Let's teach them to learn to do this by them self. 
But they won't listen - do you say.
Right, many don't listen when we speak up, stand up, show us.
We have to waken them- but how? More words? More demonstration in silence, dance or with kisses?
Or is violence a choice to wake them up and make them look and listen to us? As it was 1969 needed. Is is needed now? Do we need a new Stonewall to collect us, to show us and get straight to the point again and then show them how to do it the LOVE way?
Lot's of discussion are needed but at the end we have to remember where exactly we stand.
There we wil know what to do, because I think, we have to do it all together, all ways and choices.  All variations (except those who means we fight against something- this way we lose, all will lose). 
Because that is the only way to get everyone to listen, because some will only act when they see a silent parade, others when they se a documentation, others will react when we fight back with a fist or showing a kiss. Then others will react when we show mercy or when we say out and loud and proud - STOP-! or they are people who will finally listen to arguments instead of following blind a word of a priest. 
Yes the time has come that it is no longer acceptable to hate gays and lesbians, trans and bisexual. The time has arrived that we all have to fight for the right to love without fear. No matter who you are. The time is here to see the light and stop being blind. 
And yes violence will be a part of it sometimes, because sometimes it's the first step which is needed to get out of a situation. It's the right to fight back. 
So.... to all the haters and homophobes.
Forget that we are a doormat, whipping boys, victims or scapegoats for t.ex. politics who just dislike the western living style!
WE ARE PEOPLE OF THIS WORLD WORTH THE SAME AS YOU!

LOVE & LIGHT

You I Love

You I love.... Who.... my man, my child, my live.. MY live?
I have a friend in Sweden, he and his mate are trying to get a child... it's more complicated as we all thought it would be.... years of waiting, years of fighting, years of trying... and lying from other people... Well, still gays don't have it easy to get what they want and have a right to... 
'cos if it's love it can't be wrong... or are we all wrong and love is just a thing in our mind? No?!
Well then- let's go on....
They are married and together for a while. Part of a generation of gays who is capable of thinking of having a child. They would not be the first queer parents in the world. But outside in the world you sometimes have the feeling as you where the first one to try and bring the idea of having your own family with a child. And yes, some gay think we should not have a child- I always wonder why, cos what they say is never a reason for me to not be a father.
Some say it's egoistic to want some, but isn't it always with that? Or do we just say that because they are gay? 
Over the years it should be clear for everyone, that queer parents are no less better for a child then heterosexual one or a single father or mother, or a grandmother or grandfather, nor an uncle or aunt.
It's all about love.
So why are we still fighting this shit.... ? A question I once read, not long ago.. and yes I ask you that...! How in the world can we not go on...?
Well, my friends learns a lot about things he never imagine he would learn or have to..., not to speak about what he has to do to make a dream come true...
This makes me wonder what if I have the chance? I was always thinking about adopting a child. But if this is so hard to make real and you have to do surrogacy... This is in no way an easier way... no no...
Well for a lesbian it seems easier and people seem to take it not so hard that two woman are with a child, but man? Gay man? Who is the mother- a stupid question by the way... Can they show how to be a man? Next stupid question... of course they can...!
Well, I never thought having a child as a single parents, but nowadays I have those possibility too in my mind. I am single so this is something to think about too, and of course, I don't want to be an old dad... And we all know how times can fly.. 

The law in the my country allows me to adopt as a single, but the truth is, it surly will never happen as long as you are not rich. But then, what if one of us- if I have found my partner for life- what if he is HIV pos.? Do we have a chance at all to get a child or two? 
What if both of us are? I mean we know with the medicine we have today, people in the western world can get old, maybe very old. But above this... my live has never been all the same... lots of changing.. lots of jobs... moving in and out, living here and there... what will they think about that? Whatever I say, however positive I can make it in their eyes.. will they believe I am the right and my man will it be too? Or will we need surrogacy, no matter how many children out their would be happy to have a parent... and I mean Germany has a lot homeless and parentless children too. But as it seems this times, it went harder to get a "Yes". Are they really acting in the name of a child? Does not seem so, when You look nearer... Money is one of the reason the keep children instead of finding a home for them... 
So...
Do I need to spend my sperm and a lot of money to just get a child? Or do I better say no to all and have nothing at all?
What it makes worse is that surrogacy is not allowed in Germany... So- if you make a child outside the country it can easy be that you are not allowed to bring it into the country... cos it is a member of the country where it is born... things got complicated...? 
Why is mankind so stupid?
But there is always hope... the world is going to be more and more open for the fact, that queer people are god as all the others as parents... and I hope, this time we will make it a breakthrough... at the end.. if not, it's not the end, cos in the end, everything is beautiful and free and happy and parents are parents, no matter what they are, gay, bi, trans, lesbian, single, grandmother, sister, brother, aunt or uncle... 

LOVE & LIGHT

Patrik 1,5

Because I am flying in a few days to my second home again I had recently watched a Swedish movie on DVD to refresh my Swedish. The film is called "Patrik 1.5" and is about adoption by a gay couple, but something is different than expected. As in real life too and that made me think of friends who might get a child within surrogacy or about a couple some can expect a child soon, to whom they can give a home. Both couples are lovely and I really which the best for them but for now both got other problems to get through.

And so I think about that in Germany there is even difficult for heterosexuals to adopt and surrogacy is banned at all. Which means you have to look for a mother outside the country and can't even be sure that the child will be yours 'cos the law.

For myself, as a single in a long period of time, the question of having a child is certainly one with two sides. Surely we can adopt their own, but it costs a lot of power and money and is considering the current situation probably greater responsibility and challenge than they did 30 years ago. On the other side, I was never thinkin' about adoption of children alone, always wanted to to it with a life partner.

The reality now is, it's even hard to adopt as a gay couple in Germany and the laws are not much better then ten years ago and moreover, many countries don't want to adopt children to gays. But above this, you try to plan and to explain how you would do the things you have to do when you have children, but then... what if situation changes? The laws are not on your side....

What if.... have you enough friends to help you, enough strength to go through, your parents still behind you?

Still so many people never think about this and just have children, no matter what and sometimes they have them just because it just happens, never was planed but couldn't change.

Am I thinkin' to much of it and do worry to much, cos life can always change in a way you never planed?

When you look at friends which are goin' through some mad and when you look around and see how difficult it can be to educate your child, or all the people which still think a child should only grow up with a mother and a father, it might seem you got a lot of warning.

So... still no Partner in sigth... Should I let this go forever and let it be... just be someone who never will have children like some others too, like a Girlfriend who is now too old???

But everytime I read about this and see a film about it -it's like a wake up call and I think, I would like to be parent. I'm sure I can be a good one.

Well I'm much aware of the fact that this is not the most important problem in the world.

And yes, I'll always say let's see how the way of life goes- the world will not go under because of this.

LOVE & LIGTH