Do you remember the world Aids Day or has it already gone by and you forgot about it... and all the things around it...? Or do you have the feeling of having the need of getting to know more about it... What about movies, who show you some ways of living with HIV and Aids...?
Do you heard about the book and also the film "and the band played on"...?
It's the story of the beginning of all and how people use to act in 1980 and the years after and why it took such a long time to start finally the fight against this disease....
Another movie which is about the myth of patient Zero... You know a long time there was the story of a man who was the one who brought the virus to the states .... Well the movie, is kind of musical, part happy, sometimes, crazy but it won't let you go away easy at the end, because you will also get angry seeing some things which happened... but you have to laugh sometimes too... I mean singing butts...!
Another movie is about a dancer and how he learns to fight back and find love and life again.... The movie is a mix of just a movie of love, but also a movie of awareness and togetherness... Watch it if you can... It will give you hope, after all the drama you can get through sometimes...
Now I can recommend a movie, which is actually not one, it's a two part story.. based on an theater play and kind of fantasy and real story... The actors are part very famous, but all actors play very well and the storyline is really good and the rest as well and you get really an Idea from the time when all big lies starts and the fight and how the gays and the families acted and you also get an idea how to survive, but also which prize you pay... These 6 hours will make you think about what you have, but also leave you with a feeling of your own part of live... and by the way, the film has some scene that are more then worth watching... you really will like them...
The next movie will show you that you can really make a comedy of such things like HIV and Aids... Captain Picard will lead you the way and mother Theresa is helping too... Fun Fun Fun is what you get, although it is much about what do we want and how to deal with it.... but then again... let's have fun with Yoko One!
But there are also to tell stories from other countries then the USA. France even has a very good Film series to show you, how heterosexual have to deal with it, how it was when you got infected blood and how people around you work or not ... well the series is very much worth seeing, because you get en idea of the time, the country, the lies, the way, the fight, the love and dead... Live isn't always fair but you have to go on... cos live does... watch it, but take your time... Viva la France... "What love means"
The last movie I'm gonna recommend to you is a love story.. a gay falls in love with a heterosexual and somehow their ways cross again and again and what are you capable to do, when you love someone.. and if this one is going to die.... will you let yourself into this? This movie is in my eyes very much worth watching for everyone, cos it shows you to ask yourself... what if you fall in love with someone who is ill, has a disease, will die in the next time... will you risk it? I really love this movie... and I hope it will make you stronger, when it is about love... no matter what... "The man of my heart"
LOVE & LIGHT
Ach ich liebe Kinderbücher und neulich habe ich wieder ein wunderbares Exemplar geholt...
"Der kleine Drache Theodor"... Ein Drache der nicht ganz so ist wie alle anderen... ein dichtender Drache, ein süsser Drache, einer der das Fliegen lernen will und doch nicht schafft, was alle anderen können.... Zu gross und zu klein zugleich.... So wunderbar erzählt und vor allem so wundervoll illustriert, das es eine wahre Freude ist hindurch zu blättern für jung und alt. Vor allem aber, das grosse Buchformat passt ausgezeichnet zu der ganzen Geschichte und den gemalten Bildern die so viel erzählen... Eine Geschichte, in die man sich wahrlich schnell verlieben kann....
Anbei ein paar Bilder aus dem Buch.... es lohnt den Kauf..... :-)
LOVE & LIGHT
Looking back at this year.. It's time again... Yes it really is and therefor I have to take a deep breath and now I can start telling you.. it really was a year with many changes... many challenges... and many things turned out another way as planed.. but this is common... most time they do turn out in an other way then planed, right? ...
When I think back, first of all, I am so grateful having such good friends around me, no matter where they live now.. because a lot of my friends have moved and so I can really say in the name of the word.. they are worldwide... Oh I got to know a lot of new people and also did I met some old again, I have not seen for a while.
I really must think hard to remember all the things that happen... The year stared with an job in a hospital, which turned out not to be my place to stay and so I went back to my old job. Did not work with the same people there together but then it was a new challenge... and I also started learning something new to get a higher position in the house...which I will end next year and hope to pass the test in February. It turns out to be the best thing I could ever have done and I had the chance to start this work much earlier as planed. It's still a lot to learn and to get through with the new position and I never though it could be so much work.... made me realize how less a "normal" worker does know about the job in a higher position. You must know, sometimes I which I could have more time for my stuff at work to talk with, to cherish them face to face, but because there is so much to do, it is hard to stay on what you which...
You know, I really care about the people I work with, I have warm feelings for them. Usually you think that people in higher position don't care much about you... and many times this is true, but not always.
It is also nice to see some people grow and getting stronger with the time no matter if it's the "normal" stuff or the chef or someone another... Yes we have a lot to deal with and we all know that next year will be a big challenge to, but we can make it as long as everyone tries to do it's best and to become a better person. It really is that simple, just try to become a better person and most of the problems will be gone at the end.
I always use to have much warm feelings for people I just meet once in a while... just because they are... So I really enjoy seeing them no matter where we met.
Yes, like so many others I did let myself open for an affair or better for some love... but well... Just now I can say, as much as I kind of love the people I met, no one was the ONE... Well, that was because I was also thinking a lot about my own expectation....and had to change some.. let lose some... because sometimes, you walk in the right direction but still have pictures in your had you don't need, when you want something different as you still get or as I still got...
Letting lose got me ill sometimes, but then it felt much better, so much easier.
And again, I am so grateful to have my friends and also I can clearly say, I have a second home in Sweden and my second family there. It was such a pity that I got ill the moment I wanted to fly back to them last time I had planed.. but that's the way it is sometimes.. you gotta deal with it.
I also was thinking much about my future... not in a way how it exactly should be and not what will I have in five years.. it was more like, what if... I mean... I always wanted children and many people around me got one or will be parents next year.... It is so exited to see them, to listen to them.. and I am on an age where you sometimes think about the possibilities of not having children. I would not be the first and sure am not the only one... I surly can deal with this but as I can remember, I never wanted to be much older then 40 or 42 to become a father.. For the child and for me.. I never thought of being older then this... So not much time left....
Anyway this year was also a year I started traveling to other parts of the world again and it was amazing and I know where to travel next year... although I never though I will do it alone... that was never planed but maybe it will be that way, but I decided not to wait longer. So next year I am gonna be in Stockholm for pride and... to Bali... well on the way I will surely visit a friend in Asia... too. Also I plan a trip to London and Cardif.
Another big thing this year is and was to make a Show again, after four years of a break I finally am back on stage. It's just a big dream.... Don't know if I would go on with that after this year but I still have another big project on the run, to sell my book, which I had no time this year to fix it... Well you'll never know what it's good for. I truly believe that every thing comes in the right way....
I also had such an enjoyment to see my flowers grow and have kind of a little garden next to my flat.
Also my second grandmother died, but we had real nice funeral. Yes this year was also a year where people died... Some more beloved, some less but they had to go at last. In my world their are people dealing also with cancer, HIV and other diseases. It's not easy, but some made it through, other still have to deal with it and I know partly how it feels....
But therefore I am more then ever grateful for my life because I really love it. No matter how hard it seems to get sometimes, it is always worth living. I hope you can have the same feeling too. Yes, when I make my show and when you ask me about my numbers... mostly they really have something to do with me... I tell about love who went made, when you where young and naive and trusted blind in everyone. Or I am talking about to remember all the ways people have though me or how they pushed me... It really is something from my own live ... And that's why I hope people will like my show and also spend some money at the end for a project I think needs some help... It's by the way a project who helps victims of violence, of crime against homosexual, transgender or because they seem to fit in this kind of category.
Otherwise, this year was everything you could imagine.... I saw love, hate, fear, passion, trust, lies, stupid things, funny things and have learned a lot, not only in the way of living, also with computers, writing and I also am happy, I still can drive a car and tank it... You know... I did not drove since two years... for me it's a long time and I was never a passion driver. :-)
I also learned again, that doing spiritual work needs trust and time and comes when it comes ... much the same with sport... I started swimming this year again after 20 years not even swim a bit... It turns out to be the best thing I could do and I will continue with this next year... I also will move like many of my friends did this year. As much as I love my flat, it's just a "one" room.... I know some of you will say this is a first world problem.. and well you're right but then... I need to..:-)
But then again... I go my way, like everybody must and so I can only tell you you should follow your heart too... If it's going to a museum, or cinema, in the park or to a Guru like Amma... Do it! If not, you'll regret it.... mostly.... and... read books sometimes...;-)
So now I wish you all my friends and readers a very happy and calm and nice x-mas time and a happy new year when it comes.. also hope you take part in the fact to be aware that a new time has stared... Let's light up this world for a better, even know it will hurt sometimes in the beginning, cos letting lose of some habits can hurt more then you ever thought and forgive my friends that I did not always have had enough time for you... I will try to be better... and to remember all your birthdays... I must confess I was very bad this year with this.. If facebook would not show it..I maybe forgot the most, even my own....:-)
Let yourself be loved and loved in return... I really which you all the LOVE & LIGHT
Yes again, it took a while to write again.. I was ill and had a lot to do, as you have surely read about earlier. This time I wanna write about something which takes it's rounds around facebook and co.
You know, people like to share clips from youtube, the funny stuff, the crazy stuff, the hero stuff and so on. Sometimes I do wonder why people react so heavenly on these youtube things... I mean they keep posting and posting the same stuff on and on and again... not sure if people realize that sometimes what they post is disgusting and should better not be shown... but they seem to enjoy it or make some bad jokes about it... Sometimes I wonder where the empathy went... Did we lost it...?
Last viral video is about a little girl in an elevator coming out when it suddenly gets dark inside.... The people in the elevator are almost scared of the fact that the light is going out and then when the light is on again and there is this creepy girl... It scared the heart out of everyone and not that this was enough, they had to do it twice the same game... I think... here is en example where we should have said stop, because this is no fun at all and I am sure if this happened to me, I would have taken a advokat...
I mean this joke was not like lets prank someone or make a little fun, lets make them jump a sec and tell them it was all fun...no this was much more and worse and so many people wrote on youtube that they had so much fun seeing people nearly die of fear... What is it with us? Why do they not say stop!?
To play with the fear of people is never fun and I may say that it is o.k. to make a little easy fun with this might be o.k. but that example drove it much to far... Here was a real risk of a heart attack and a nervous break down..the people cried, screamed and had to screamed again, they lost their strength and faith and I am pretty sure most of them will now fear the elevator. But no apologies... We can be happy that no one killed itself, like the nurse in England who was a victim of a prank from a radio show.. after her mistake, all the press of the country where making jokes about her and laughed and that was too much for her...
So here we are again and asking where has the empathy for each other gone?
Who is starting telling to the others --Hey don't you see what you do? Don't you realize that you should remember respect... Do you really think this is fun when this happens to you..?
Will you do? Will you be one of them who opens the mouth, the mind the heart....?
Because in what future will this lead us, if we let these things go on and happen..?
Will we start laughing in the future when we see them die, just because it's on tv or youtube?
What you gonna do?
I hope you will go for the love and light way.... I wish we would do this more often.... and remember respect, empathy, human dignity....
Well..hope is the last thing to give up... that's why I send you all my
LOVE & LIGHT
