...und wieder einmal besuchte ich die "Alte Nationalgalerie" in Berlin.
Selbstverständlich auch unter: http://www.berlin.de/orte/museum/alte-nationalgalerie/ zu finden. Aber warum geht man dahin? Es ist erstens ein sehr schönes Gebäude und darum herum hat sich viel getan. Vieles ist restauriert und wenn auch immer noch einiges gebastelt wird, da die Museumsinsel, samt Spreekanal wieder einmal generalüberholt werden muss, so ist der Spaziergang dahin empfehlenswert, zumal der Hackesche Markt gleich um die Ecke liegt und der Lustgarten uns bei gutem Wetter zum verweilen vor dem Dom beweget.
Museumsbesuche sind jedoch bekanntlich am schönsten wenn es graues Wetter gibt, Regen hernieder prasselt oder die Kälte einen wenig verleitet, draussen sein Glück zu suchen.
Die Alte Nationalgalerie enthält die Bilder der alten Meister, wie von Carl Blechen, Gustav Blaester, Monet oder Hans Thoma, aber auch Bildern von Karl Friedrich Schinkel- dem berühmten Architekten, dessen Berliner Mitte ohne ihn ganz anders ausgesehen hätte.
Angefangen von Florentinischer Freskenkunst, über italienische Malerei, bis hin zum Expressionismus und der Romantik, findet sich eine wunderbare und abwechslungsreiche Sammlung. Das Schöne ist, das diese zwar einerseits eine Daueraustellung ist, aber dennoch, aufgrund des grossen Fundus der Staalichen Museen, immer wieder einen Austausch der Exponate hat. Sei es weil Bilder verliehen werden oder kleine Einzelausstellungen statt finden.
Aktuell findet eine recht grosse Gastausstellung statt. "Gesichter einer Epoche" gennant. Die Portraits sind von Anton Graff und wahrlich sehr schön und interessant anzuschauen. Die Ausstellung ist in der obersten Etage des Museums untergebracht und das hatte zur Folge, das alles was dort sonst zu sehen ist, weichen musste. Auf der einen Seite schade, auf der anderen Seite hat man sich die Mühe gemacht, etliche Exponate umzuhängen. Dies war, beziehungsweise ist in meinen Augen ein Glücksfall, denn die neuen Plätze lassen den Betrachter die Bilder und Plastiken in einem anderem Licht sehen und es tat einigen u.A. auch sehr bekannten Gemälden sehr gut. So hängen die Bilder von Caspar David Friedrich jetzt nicht nur enger zusammen, sondern auch vor einer dunkelroten Wand, was ihnen nicht nur mehr Fokus verschafft, sondern ihre Stimmung viel besser auffängt und man die Epoche der Romantischen Malerei besser versteht. Andere Bilder der Romantik hängen jetzt vor einer blauen Wand und auch hier hebt es die Stimmung und den Inhalt viel besser hervor, als vor heller, fast weisser Wand.
Hiermit zeigt sich dem Betrachter auch, was Wandfarben für einen Einfluss ausüben können. Dies wird vor allen auch denjenigen auffallen dürfen, die schon einmal in der Alten Nationalgalerie waren.
Weiteres Beispiel? Die Bilder von Thoma hängen jetzt fast alle dicht nebeneinander und damit hebt sich deren Farbintensität mehr hervor, da sie nicht nach harmonischem Standpunkt, sondern nach Thema gehängt wurden. Was wieder der Vielfalt der Arbeit des Künstlers mehr gerecht wird.
Karl Gussow's Bild "Frau Hedwig Woworskuy" macht sich vor einer cremefarbenen Wand ausgesprochen gut, da es die Farbe ihres Kleides einfängt und weil der Hintergrund im Bild dunkel gehalten ist, leuchtet sie geradezu aus dem Bild heraus einen an. Was auch für das Selbstbildnis von Sabine Graff gilt, welches nun viel lebendiger wirkt. Bisher wirkte sie selbst auf dem Bild eher düster, unnahbar und schien eher zu verschwinden, als sich dem Betrachter zu nähern.
Das Portrait des Malers Carl Schuch, von Wilhelm Trübner 1876 angefertigt, hängt jetzt ganz für sich und kann so die Aufmerksamkeit bekommen, die es wirklich verdient hat, denn es ist die typische Potraitmalerei, mit sehr dunklem, fast schwarzem Hintergrund, nur das sich hier zusätzlich alles um einen dunklen Mittelpunkt in blau/schwarz aufgebaut hat. Eigentlich ist es kein Portrait, sondern ein Ganzkörperbild des Künstlers, in gelassener, scheinbar entspannter Pose, seitlich zum Betrachter gewandt. Man sollte sich Zeit nehmen es zu betrachten, da man dann mehr und mehr entdeckt. Leider ist es so, dass das Licht hier etwas ungünstig fällt, so dass ich empfehle, sich das Gemälde von der Seite anzuschauen.
Ein weiterer kleiner Kritikpunkt ist, das ich gerne auf einige Skizzen von Adolf Menzel verzichtet und lieber einige Exponate aus der obersten Etage dort hängen gesehen hätte. Sosehr einige dieser Skizzen gut die Stimmung auffangen, die der Maler einfangen wollte, sind sie doch nicht so gut, das man sie nicht hätte "opfern" können. Es hängen genug fertige Bilder von dem Künstler in der Nationalgalerie, so das man sich ein Bild seines Schaffens und Könnens machen kann.
Dennoch... nach all den Gemälden und wunderschönen Plastiken, kann man nur immer wieder einen Besuch in der Nationalgalerie empfehlen und wer mag, kauft sich am Ende noch den Katalog der Ausgestellten Werke von E.A. Seemann, denn dieser ist nicht nur nach den Namen der Künstler sortiert, sondern gibt auch einen kurzen und prägnanten Zusatz zu jedem Bild, seiner Entstehung oder Zeit.
So denn ist jetzt genug geschrieben...
Licht & Liebe
Looking back at this year.. It's time again... Yes it really is and therefor I have to take a deep breath and now I can start telling you.. it really was a year with many changes... many challenges... and many things turned out another way as planed.. but this is common... most time they do turn out in an other way then planed, right? ...
When I think back, first of all, I am so grateful having such good friends around me, no matter where they live now.. because a lot of my friends have moved and so I can really say in the name of the word.. they are worldwide... Oh I got to know a lot of new people and also did I met some old again, I have not seen for a while.
I really must think hard to remember all the things that happen... The year stared with an job in a hospital, which turned out not to be my place to stay and so I went back to my old job. Did not work with the same people there together but then it was a new challenge... and I also started learning something new to get a higher position in the house...which I will end next year and hope to pass the test in February. It turns out to be the best thing I could ever have done and I had the chance to start this work much earlier as planed. It's still a lot to learn and to get through with the new position and I never though it could be so much work.... made me realize how less a "normal" worker does know about the job in a higher position. You must know, sometimes I which I could have more time for my stuff at work to talk with, to cherish them face to face, but because there is so much to do, it is hard to stay on what you which...
You know, I really care about the people I work with, I have warm feelings for them. Usually you think that people in higher position don't care much about you... and many times this is true, but not always.
It is also nice to see some people grow and getting stronger with the time no matter if it's the "normal" stuff or the chef or someone another... Yes we have a lot to deal with and we all know that next year will be a big challenge to, but we can make it as long as everyone tries to do it's best and to become a better person. It really is that simple, just try to become a better person and most of the problems will be gone at the end.
I always use to have much warm feelings for people I just meet once in a while... just because they are... So I really enjoy seeing them no matter where we met.
Yes, like so many others I did let myself open for an affair or better for some love... but well... Just now I can say, as much as I kind of love the people I met, no one was the ONE... Well, that was because I was also thinking a lot about my own expectation....and had to change some.. let lose some... because sometimes, you walk in the right direction but still have pictures in your had you don't need, when you want something different as you still get or as I still got...
Letting lose got me ill sometimes, but then it felt much better, so much easier.
And again, I am so grateful to have my friends and also I can clearly say, I have a second home in Sweden and my second family there. It was such a pity that I got ill the moment I wanted to fly back to them last time I had planed.. but that's the way it is sometimes.. you gotta deal with it.
I also was thinking much about my future... not in a way how it exactly should be and not what will I have in five years.. it was more like, what if... I mean... I always wanted children and many people around me got one or will be parents next year.... It is so exited to see them, to listen to them.. and I am on an age where you sometimes think about the possibilities of not having children. I would not be the first and sure am not the only one... I surly can deal with this but as I can remember, I never wanted to be much older then 40 or 42 to become a father.. For the child and for me.. I never thought of being older then this... So not much time left....
Anyway this year was also a year I started traveling to other parts of the world again and it was amazing and I know where to travel next year... although I never though I will do it alone... that was never planed but maybe it will be that way, but I decided not to wait longer. So next year I am gonna be in Stockholm for pride and... to Bali... well on the way I will surely visit a friend in Asia... too. Also I plan a trip to London and Cardif.
Another big thing this year is and was to make a Show again, after four years of a break I finally am back on stage. It's just a big dream.... Don't know if I would go on with that after this year but I still have another big project on the run, to sell my book, which I had no time this year to fix it... Well you'll never know what it's good for. I truly believe that every thing comes in the right way....
I also had such an enjoyment to see my flowers grow and have kind of a little garden next to my flat.
Also my second grandmother died, but we had real nice funeral. Yes this year was also a year where people died... Some more beloved, some less but they had to go at last. In my world their are people dealing also with cancer, HIV and other diseases. It's not easy, but some made it through, other still have to deal with it and I know partly how it feels....
But therefore I am more then ever grateful for my life because I really love it. No matter how hard it seems to get sometimes, it is always worth living. I hope you can have the same feeling too. Yes, when I make my show and when you ask me about my numbers... mostly they really have something to do with me... I tell about love who went made, when you where young and naive and trusted blind in everyone. Or I am talking about to remember all the ways people have though me or how they pushed me... It really is something from my own live ... And that's why I hope people will like my show and also spend some money at the end for a project I think needs some help... It's by the way a project who helps victims of violence, of crime against homosexual, transgender or because they seem to fit in this kind of category.
Otherwise, this year was everything you could imagine.... I saw love, hate, fear, passion, trust, lies, stupid things, funny things and have learned a lot, not only in the way of living, also with computers, writing and I also am happy, I still can drive a car and tank it... You know... I did not drove since two years... for me it's a long time and I was never a passion driver. :-)
I also learned again, that doing spiritual work needs trust and time and comes when it comes ... much the same with sport... I started swimming this year again after 20 years not even swim a bit... It turns out to be the best thing I could do and I will continue with this next year... I also will move like many of my friends did this year. As much as I love my flat, it's just a "one" room.... I know some of you will say this is a first world problem.. and well you're right but then... I need to..:-)
But then again... I go my way, like everybody must and so I can only tell you you should follow your heart too... If it's going to a museum, or cinema, in the park or to a Guru like Amma... Do it! If not, you'll regret it.... mostly.... and... read books sometimes...;-)
So now I wish you all my friends and readers a very happy and calm and nice x-mas time and a happy new year when it comes.. also hope you take part in the fact to be aware that a new time has stared... Let's light up this world for a better, even know it will hurt sometimes in the beginning, cos letting lose of some habits can hurt more then you ever thought and forgive my friends that I did not always have had enough time for you... I will try to be better... and to remember all your birthdays... I must confess I was very bad this year with this.. If facebook would not show it..I maybe forgot the most, even my own....:-)
Let yourself be loved and loved in return... I really which you all the LOVE & LIGHT
