The genetic of our culture we've been grown from...

When you try to live in another country you will come one day to the point where you realize how deep the culture you have lived with most of your life will affect your stay in the new country.
It is a background you will be more aware then ever and in the same time many question are popping up into your mind. 
Starting maybe with the fact that you may take a walk around in your new country and try to discover new places and so you find things they made to remind people of their past and history of this land. As all countries nowadays are made of all the people who came across the ocean, people who rode across the other countries to get in touch to you. 
What would we be if we never met each other that way in the past. We exchanged food, lifestyle and knowledge. 

Expect those reminder on strange places as this is often the case, even here in Gothenburg you'll find those things when you walk and try to look an other way as you used to. 
So I found evidence of the asian contact Swedish people had somewhere between the streets. Yes not saw them when I walked by a several times but then, it was discovered. 
Of course you maybe then start to wonder how people can hate other people, strangers or refugees. 
It's those looking with a blind eye that makes it possible. 
And many do not take the opportunity to discover other countries to their heart when they make their holiday there. Sadly, far to many prefer to stay blind to all that could be because they have somehow in mind all they need is all they already have and they will get whatever they want and so there is no need for more but that they always could be wrong does not come to mind. 
Anyway, when you start to go a new way you will come to the point where you ask yourself not only to see the difference between the old and new or to see what could be possible. You start to wonder what of all the different things may fit you and with which you may never come to make peace as some things can be compromise but sometimes you won't. It actually does not matter why, as it is often just a feeling and then the mind who declares the reason why. For other people it may not be logical but when does have feelings inside you have to do with logic. 
The trouble is, that if you are a man of mind you will get confused for a short or longer time and it won't be easier when you get back to your old home and then again come back to your new place. 
That is what I experience now, the different feelings of all good and bad here and back. The awareness of what I can and want to deal with and what not. The discovering that even known that I am living just now in Sweden it just came to my inner place that when I came back the other night that I had the strange feeling of being in a book, being in another country. Already realized that living in a nice and clean town, as Gothenburg is very nice and clean, it seems to me to clean, to quite and then I wonder... has the genetic of my hometown Berlin become that much part of myself that I feel less comfort with such a place like this here in Sweden? Because that is what will come to your mind. The places you're crown will make it into your flesh and the way you lived your live back then too. 
Wonder then how a refugee must felt as they are not here because they wanted, more that they needed to flee. How must this feel for them. Better being on a modern place? Maybe it is not. 
Also being in a foreign place makes you aware of what you like and what not, because it is always easy to make the mind stray but in new places you have no other choice then take this path and decide if you care, if you like and if not what to do and how to react. 
This is much what I do now.
And just now leaving my old flat and now living in a rented room is a compromise I do as I always lived alone, but as this is not for all time, but nevertheless leaving my flat feels good as it was planed so and so. 

Travel the world and living on other places as the one you know may give you the feeling of being lonely or and then being free, may give you the idea of what could be but most of all, after you felt all this it will most likely make you wonder where home is and where you will be in the next year as you may realize that you've changed from a man who believed that there is only one place of happiness and future to a man of the world and maybe you will become one of those who will live on different places all their live. 
I know some of them and I for sure know I won't crow old in Sweden, as I realized that I want to discover more and more. 
But so it is important for you to make friends all over the world who can not only help but teach you and give you strength just by being there. Then you maybe will also- like I - discover that you will survive somehow, even know your mother and father will not feel the same sure as you, as parents used not to do- how open they may be. 
Smile about that, that's the right way. 
Also many of you will feel that money is really not everything that matters to stay or to go. It is the way you feel how you want to liv your live. Thought as a single it is surely different to be in places no matter where there are. 
But no matter what you do.. all comes to clear and in the end every step you do is right, thought it may not always feel like this, but it will led you to the place you have to be and mistakes are just things to learn from, challenges to take and to remember to take the word problem out of it will help you a big deal because then you will always be able to stop and do it different. How can you not win that way. And with that positive thought I will leave you for now... enjoy the autum/ fall.

Love & Light

Autum/Fall in Gothenburg

Well, I could start with that it always rains and is so cold and getting now so early dark but you know what?! Actually we have great weather here, warm wind blowing and only once in a while the rain. Autum in Gothenburg can be fine. But you know what?! Is autum/ fall not the best time of the year? 
The colours are spreading, your steps are faster and you still can eat outside or well you can look out for mushrooms. It is the best time to discover nature as its best again. Go out and not only into little parks. Flee to the woods and smell and listen! Listen and hear that you can hear the silence in nature. Thought around this town Gothenburg- there are a lot of woods and little sees- you don't have to go that far. Just visit the botanical garden and then the saved nature area behind it. 
After driving the car the day before and wonder why so many people seems to like to get killed by a car because they don't even look on the streets and I mean when it is dark you really should, as the most of you aren't actually no sparkling light. But even the bike riders don't seem to care- no light, no looking around , just going on their bike. Not that this is new as I know this from Berlin and many other big towns but I am drifting away now. Those letting them self killed by stupidness is just one of the sad things going on on earth. All those killing by following blind a religion or the media and the politic instead of taking care of their life by - well - your own. Of course those thoughts came up after I went through the wild, the garden, the park. Because nature is such a place to easy show you what life is about. Just look around, the plants, the animals and we as the mankind think, really think, we are better because we have a brain -many don't use by the way. How sad this is, but more sadly those who prefer to stay blind never know. But then, we have a choice because we have a brain. We can choose to live in love. Because nature also does this and see how god it gets. There is no hate and no useless killing. There is no need for negative use of power. Yes some animals eat animals but only when they are hungry. They do not kill just to give you pain or because you are different. Difference is actually needed for a healthy nature. A wood will liv better with hundreds of different kinds of plants and animals. So does a garden. 
But what I also like with a garden, parks and botanical garden is, that you travel through time and space and countries. So many plants come from so many different places and there you see them coexist. And then the silence. How I could easy forget that this is so god for you, is just to remember that when we live our everyday life, we are easy to turn our eyes the wrong way as we have to often learnt from the media, politic and religions. So turn around and breath, sit in the sun, touch the tress and grass and watch the birds fly. 
How wonderful to be in the middle of something like a wilderness and being far away from a town which surrounds this place. I actually felt that I even was not in Sweden. I felt like I was home at my parents wood. That feeling that I could be somewhere on this earth and that it doesn't matter where this place actually is was new. I just felt being in the nature and that's why I tell you to do the same. It is still warm enough and it is so colourful and the shadows play is so nice and you calm down and so you reconnect with the nature, the true nature you are part of.  We are all part of, but we are drifting away to soon, to often. And understanding in the same time how big it is to have a big park in town. It is not just a place to rest, it is to reconnect and the air refreshing machine and it is culture and after all it is a wonder we have the great luck to have. Our grandmothers generation may not did all right but this, they did, because this will keep the chance for us people to survive when the time of real crisis come, because this will remind us before and after how to survive in nature and how we are part of it and that the world, the earth does not need us but we do need the earth.  
If only more people would walk and talk in a park or just walk and watch and be in silence instead of having their focus on the iphone nowadays. What a shame. 
But there is always hope. There is always a chance. There is always a choice. To waken up and reconnect. Like you've seen in so many movies in the last years. 
So, folks, now, the pictures are coming and maybe you want to do the walk in the green. 

LOVE & LIGHT

two plants connecting 

the colors of our life

art is for some just a place to be

the japanese garden part

autum/ fall must be the greatest time of the year

seems so far a way this town called Gothenburg but is nearer then you think