Once again Gothenburg/ Sweden...

Another night I cannot sleep, no wonder, it's again my time when I work in the morning, so that means going up half 5 o'clock and then start the day...but the more I do it, the less I can...I get so tiered after work, so I feel like I am not able to do anything, well I can but needs more energy- feels like that and it seems, it is no more my thing, no more that easy to do it for me... well seems some things have changed... For sure it is not my biological rhythm. I know I am not the only one in the world to go up so early and I know I decided to do that job, no one has forced me into it... 

Gothenburg Sweden...
But these nights make me think of so many... What do I want to do next? How can I change the situation on work to a better? How do I make them speak the truth? When to do the last steps to bring out my books? When to travel? Where to travel? Oh I love to travel... but have so many things I am interested that I have sometimes problems to find my time to travel... and all the questions like, where to make a short tour, when to make the big fly..? All the places I wanna be, wanna see, smell and experience. All the adventures I wanna have I can have... Oh I remember not having any fear when I traveled after finishing my school time. I feel how people in my age have changed... no more seeking the adventure is very common..it seems..but not to all and so I feel the lust, the need, the desire to move to other places to get to know other ways of living. Not only with the help of books. 

Harbor of Gothenburg with old ships
But I also think about where I wanna live in this world this time. Since I was in Sweden, even know it was not such a long time, I changed my view of Berlin and the feelings have changed too. I mean I love Berlin, I've crown up here... but there's no need anymore to stay and since I have a lot of friends living outside the home they have crown... my mind and heart is open for so many more than to stay. Maybe it would be different if I had a job where I have to travel a lot. But then again, I have friends who travel a lot and feel the same. That I speak english better and better just because I speak swedish better and better makes my heart also feeling open and like I once wrote I feel like home on so many places, as long as I have a good time and friends there. 

typically Bus and station.. in winter like you see
My swedish is not only better, in my heart is still the feeling of an aching... a longing to be in Sweden, cos it became my second home, to be more exact Gothenburg and the area around... I have friends there which became my family. So after two years back in Berlin I feel the same like I felt the time before I moved to Sweden. Something I was expecting when I came back to Berlin two years ago, because that time I already knew, that the story was not to end. You must know the first year I was back to Berlin I traveled four times to Sweden and every time it was thank good I made it. This year I was just one time there and am so happy to finally made it to a second one and know that I will be there in autum / fall too. Could not stay longer away. 

Gothenburg/ Landvetter Busstation.. thanxxs they made one.. it can be very cold outside to wait  minutes after the Bus

a "Semla", I already wrote about them... just yummi... can't imagine not having them in the beginning of a year since I got the taste...
Wanderlust is mixed with the desire to try it once again in Sweden. Well I will be in Peru in September and yet I already know because I have those feelings since a while.. I decide where to go after that. I guess I am not moving before spring next year, but I have the feeling of going away... maybe... But now I will be in Sweden again... just a short stay.. but anyway.. am happy... 

LOVE & LIGHT