good feelings and a good mood...

Last week I saw my dear "Dr Who" again and there was the part when the Doctor is landing in the future New New York... People tried to sell "happy-happy" buttons to put on your skin to be happy and in a good mood. As if we need that... But sometimes we have the feeling we need that. How come?
Actually last week I also read a book where they wrote that science has found out that the evolution had made this negative mood of fear and to see what may come up in a dramatic and dangerous way in our personal future really the most successful part in surviving as mankind. We use to think first negative. That's our nature. Crazy though. But actually seems to be very true. Also they wrote that we know that thoughts become reality. Cos they have energy and that lead us to happenings which are also what we feel and think. More interesting is, that we will not live better with less negative thoughts, but we can catch up the positive thoughts and make them bigger and so our reality will follow, even we have bad days and sad moods too and as I said they are no less negative moods, but being a human means you can change your thoughts. So little, but so hard. Right? Isn't it?!
Can we change so fast? What about three months to try it. Three months of daily meditation- just ten minutes per day? Or three months of only visualize a positive and productive future? Just three months to try, every day? 
Science has showed that this would be enough to change to brighten and broaden your mind and personality. Does this sound good? 
Well, I learned that my body is changing next to every day, every part. Most body cells live just a few days. Your taste buds just lives some hours. Your white blood cells lives about ten days. Your muscle cells are to change every three months. 
Science says that we change about 1% of our body cells every day!
So... after 3- 4 months we have changed our body cells nearly 100%!
Even your brain cells die and there will be new ones.
Your lifestyle also gives kind of a signal of how fast cells changes. Are you mostly sitting passive then it makes the cells die faster. Are you more active, then  more new cells will be born. 
So having positive thoughts can lead to an easier live, thought that sounds not possibly for many. 
But science has also shown the last 20 years that positive moods can give you a better health and a your stress hormones become less, also you surely all have heard of people who where very sick but survived or lived much longer with their disease. 
Kathleen Light has showed in her work that just a simple hug or another body contact between people every day can make your health stronger. Do you give or get every day a hug or better some more or some other body contact- like hand to hand... then your Oxytocin is getting up, which is good for your health. 
It also helps to touch the neck or the shoulder warmly from your partner and this will make you stronger, even know that a cold will come from time to time too. ;-)
So positive feelings have helped also to survive for mankind. Cos this way the possibility to find new ideas, new ways was much bigger, cos your mind is brighter and more open then when you are sad.
But those positive thoughts makes you stronger for the storms in life. The negative moods and all the fear and hate and shame won't be less they are part of our life, but we can take the power away from them. So... won't you try? Maybe you start watching after the name Barbara I. Fredrickson and the you read about the numbers of results so many scientists have got. Maybe that makes you believe it more. 
Or maybe you think of a day which went bad and then tell me how you feel and then think of the same day, how everything went well or turned out another, positive way... Like: you could be angry that you woke up late and the time is short and your kid is screaming after you and you just think, why me and shit and how many times do I have to tell my kid not to scream after me.... Or: you wake up late and smile you have slept well and longer and that it was time for that 'cos so long ago that you woke up not too earlier and now you see the sun outside the window and so you smile, although the time is short you just change your planes for the day and while you hear your child scream you ask yourself what's wrong and go to your kid and hug it and say that everything's o.k. and maybe you cuddle a bit together before starting the rest of the day...
What if....?
Maybe...!

LOVE & LIGHT

Do you see what I see?

When I walk around... in town or somewhere I am often someone who catch little things with his eyes... No matter what it is... a flower which seems in this moment perfectly nice and make my day or the ballon flying somewhere... or bubbles some people pop up to enjoy the working and rushing people to make them stop for a moment and rest, and think and say... Hey, there is more in this world then this you've done today...! Or I see birds in the underground when it's rainy and they try to eat but we walk next to them and watch 'em... also I see often art on walls ... mostly on houses... most of them stay just a short time, some stay longer for a little while and we can smile about it, if we see it, getting aware of... I also like the fact that in a town you are able to see old times, new times taking over old times or renewing these... Many houses shows more history the most of us are willing to take a look at and think about it... in better or worse... So now you see some pics of all this I took while taking a walk or when I was on the way to somewhere....

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Once again Gothenburg/ Sweden...

Another night I cannot sleep, no wonder, it's again my time when I work in the morning, so that means going up half 5 o'clock and then start the day...but the more I do it, the less I can...I get so tiered after work, so I feel like I am not able to do anything, well I can but needs more energy- feels like that and it seems, it is no more my thing, no more that easy to do it for me... well seems some things have changed... For sure it is not my biological rhythm. I know I am not the only one in the world to go up so early and I know I decided to do that job, no one has forced me into it... 

Gothenburg Sweden...
But these nights make me think of so many... What do I want to do next? How can I change the situation on work to a better? How do I make them speak the truth? When to do the last steps to bring out my books? When to travel? Where to travel? Oh I love to travel... but have so many things I am interested that I have sometimes problems to find my time to travel... and all the questions like, where to make a short tour, when to make the big fly..? All the places I wanna be, wanna see, smell and experience. All the adventures I wanna have I can have... Oh I remember not having any fear when I traveled after finishing my school time. I feel how people in my age have changed... no more seeking the adventure is very common..it seems..but not to all and so I feel the lust, the need, the desire to move to other places to get to know other ways of living. Not only with the help of books. 

Harbor of Gothenburg with old ships
But I also think about where I wanna live in this world this time. Since I was in Sweden, even know it was not such a long time, I changed my view of Berlin and the feelings have changed too. I mean I love Berlin, I've crown up here... but there's no need anymore to stay and since I have a lot of friends living outside the home they have crown... my mind and heart is open for so many more than to stay. Maybe it would be different if I had a job where I have to travel a lot. But then again, I have friends who travel a lot and feel the same. That I speak english better and better just because I speak swedish better and better makes my heart also feeling open and like I once wrote I feel like home on so many places, as long as I have a good time and friends there. 

typically Bus and station.. in winter like you see
My swedish is not only better, in my heart is still the feeling of an aching... a longing to be in Sweden, cos it became my second home, to be more exact Gothenburg and the area around... I have friends there which became my family. So after two years back in Berlin I feel the same like I felt the time before I moved to Sweden. Something I was expecting when I came back to Berlin two years ago, because that time I already knew, that the story was not to end. You must know the first year I was back to Berlin I traveled four times to Sweden and every time it was thank good I made it. This year I was just one time there and am so happy to finally made it to a second one and know that I will be there in autum / fall too. Could not stay longer away. 

Gothenburg/ Landvetter Busstation.. thanxxs they made one.. it can be very cold outside to wait  minutes after the Bus

a "Semla", I already wrote about them... just yummi... can't imagine not having them in the beginning of a year since I got the taste...
Wanderlust is mixed with the desire to try it once again in Sweden. Well I will be in Peru in September and yet I already know because I have those feelings since a while.. I decide where to go after that. I guess I am not moving before spring next year, but I have the feeling of going away... maybe... But now I will be in Sweden again... just a short stay.. but anyway.. am happy... 

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Desire, Love and Sex....

When I walk home after a long working night,

sometimes I feel there is nothing more beautiful then walkin' down the streets of my town and have my coffee in my right hand and seeing all the people going to work while I drive home. 

No matter what the weather is, I always tend to see beautiful things on the way, like this flower you see on the pic.. simple to crow.. does not need much space to settle down... once I knew this flower much from Denmark, but now these flowers grow more and more in my city Berlin too... so nice...

Berlin Mitte
What I like with big towns like mine is that you have so many different things on same place, like little gardens next to the Station and on the other side walls with a lot of graffiti. Like the big town things smash into the little town things and then you just turn around and see something like a spaceship...

Berlin S-Bahn station

can you see the spaceship.. it's the ICC
Mostly when my night works end, I do not go to bed, then I search for something I can do... work to do at home or some interesting things in town like a street festival I was last and above all the music and people and all the meat and alcohol you can find and the celebration of life somehow you just need to sometimes look up and see a thing like a balloon and yet this one was stuck... like we are stuck sometimes but we often seems to get a crisis about such a thing like stopping for a moment.. the balloon doesn't know this and waits till the next wind comes and blows it away... like so many people wish and  lookin' after but unlike the balloon we can push ourself just with being aware that we just need to go a step right or left.. I mean look at the balloon... it's just a few centimeters which makes him fly again... Well you can wait, like so many do but maybe then unlike the balloon you'll wait a life long and then regret it. Is this really worth it? I doubt that, but maybe that's the lesson you have to learn. Who am I to condemn? But just think about it.. One look is often enough to change your view. 

Berlin, Bergmannstrassenfest 

and suddenly it got dark
But as I walk down the streets, so much sun it may be on a day, sometimes the rain is not far away... the change can come so fast, but keep calm... like so many did last time, when the storm came and the rain, but oh so nice it was just a short and heavy rain and the rest just thunder and lightning. Such things makes me smile, and if it is summer, it's like being a child again. You know waiting what will happen, staying out as long you can, feeling the wind blow, hearing the rain, not afraid of what is coming next, yet being afraid a bit maybe in the beginning, but then so exiting you get, when you get through... just sad, that so many forget this... Oh so many hear this again and again in songs, that the days comes and goes, that the sun comes after the rain was fallen, that the morning rises after a dark night... but feel it inside again... that's maybe the lesson for so many.. it seems to me.. just this one little thing to remember... why not being like a child... it does not make you helpless.           

When I think about all this, is this maybe the reason why people have forgot or unable to enjoy things all the way..though? I mean things in western world for so many has to be fun for every price or can't have the fun without alcohol or because you don't trust the world, you just have half the fun instead of all the fun. I mean why do we love all the films and TV shows where people seems to have all the fun? Is it because all things have to be big and to be lucky means for so many to be it all the time?

Well I think to be lucky means more to enjoy little things like the color of a plant or flower, of a leaf or the little sunshine wish comes through the window, or a butterfly flying next to you for a moment. Isn't it the biggest luck to feel it from time to time you can be happy without having much in your pocket? Just by seeing something or smelling something little and nice...? And when Live is so short, why are we waiting? Do you really need a push like cancer, HIV or another illness or accident? And why don't you trust your gut feeling? It tells you whom to trust or what to do, which way to go...

And so comes my mind to Sex... yes, seems so many can't enjoy it.. say- only in a relationship and then you read the best sex is not always to find there.. how come? Seems it is logic why it is not best with strangers, but same times some only have the best sex with strangers...  crazy world or just wrong learning? I mean, a stranger is a human being too... Why should he be a danger for you? Oh you're not sure? But your guts feelings warns you if it is so... Well only with a beer or too you have the best sex then, but then the danger is higher to misunderstand your guts feelings... Crazy... or? I mean seems many people fall in love with people who actually can enjoy life and sex and sex life... but the thing is, most of them just enjoy it to the full... they're not searching for a love affair... can be, but ... mostly not...  well that does not say they won't give you love... people who can enjoy little things used to have a lot of love for others... 'cos they love them self in a positive way... 

How can you learn this too? Start with being grateful and look out for those little beautiful things...

Make it like the flowers in the forrest ... grow, trust, search the light, hold on to yourself and the next thing to you.. get a connection... let the wind weigh you...

LOVE & LIGHT