Desire, Love and Sex....

When I walk home after a long working night,

sometimes I feel there is nothing more beautiful then walkin' down the streets of my town and have my coffee in my right hand and seeing all the people going to work while I drive home. 

No matter what the weather is, I always tend to see beautiful things on the way, like this flower you see on the pic.. simple to crow.. does not need much space to settle down... once I knew this flower much from Denmark, but now these flowers grow more and more in my city Berlin too... so nice...

Berlin Mitte
What I like with big towns like mine is that you have so many different things on same place, like little gardens next to the Station and on the other side walls with a lot of graffiti. Like the big town things smash into the little town things and then you just turn around and see something like a spaceship...

Berlin S-Bahn station

can you see the spaceship.. it's the ICC
Mostly when my night works end, I do not go to bed, then I search for something I can do... work to do at home or some interesting things in town like a street festival I was last and above all the music and people and all the meat and alcohol you can find and the celebration of life somehow you just need to sometimes look up and see a thing like a balloon and yet this one was stuck... like we are stuck sometimes but we often seems to get a crisis about such a thing like stopping for a moment.. the balloon doesn't know this and waits till the next wind comes and blows it away... like so many people wish and  lookin' after but unlike the balloon we can push ourself just with being aware that we just need to go a step right or left.. I mean look at the balloon... it's just a few centimeters which makes him fly again... Well you can wait, like so many do but maybe then unlike the balloon you'll wait a life long and then regret it. Is this really worth it? I doubt that, but maybe that's the lesson you have to learn. Who am I to condemn? But just think about it.. One look is often enough to change your view. 

Berlin, Bergmannstrassenfest 

and suddenly it got dark
But as I walk down the streets, so much sun it may be on a day, sometimes the rain is not far away... the change can come so fast, but keep calm... like so many did last time, when the storm came and the rain, but oh so nice it was just a short and heavy rain and the rest just thunder and lightning. Such things makes me smile, and if it is summer, it's like being a child again. You know waiting what will happen, staying out as long you can, feeling the wind blow, hearing the rain, not afraid of what is coming next, yet being afraid a bit maybe in the beginning, but then so exiting you get, when you get through... just sad, that so many forget this... Oh so many hear this again and again in songs, that the days comes and goes, that the sun comes after the rain was fallen, that the morning rises after a dark night... but feel it inside again... that's maybe the lesson for so many.. it seems to me.. just this one little thing to remember... why not being like a child... it does not make you helpless.           

When I think about all this, is this maybe the reason why people have forgot or unable to enjoy things all the way..though? I mean things in western world for so many has to be fun for every price or can't have the fun without alcohol or because you don't trust the world, you just have half the fun instead of all the fun. I mean why do we love all the films and TV shows where people seems to have all the fun? Is it because all things have to be big and to be lucky means for so many to be it all the time?

Well I think to be lucky means more to enjoy little things like the color of a plant or flower, of a leaf or the little sunshine wish comes through the window, or a butterfly flying next to you for a moment. Isn't it the biggest luck to feel it from time to time you can be happy without having much in your pocket? Just by seeing something or smelling something little and nice...? And when Live is so short, why are we waiting? Do you really need a push like cancer, HIV or another illness or accident? And why don't you trust your gut feeling? It tells you whom to trust or what to do, which way to go...

And so comes my mind to Sex... yes, seems so many can't enjoy it.. say- only in a relationship and then you read the best sex is not always to find there.. how come? Seems it is logic why it is not best with strangers, but same times some only have the best sex with strangers...  crazy world or just wrong learning? I mean, a stranger is a human being too... Why should he be a danger for you? Oh you're not sure? But your guts feelings warns you if it is so... Well only with a beer or too you have the best sex then, but then the danger is higher to misunderstand your guts feelings... Crazy... or? I mean seems many people fall in love with people who actually can enjoy life and sex and sex life... but the thing is, most of them just enjoy it to the full... they're not searching for a love affair... can be, but ... mostly not...  well that does not say they won't give you love... people who can enjoy little things used to have a lot of love for others... 'cos they love them self in a positive way... 

How can you learn this too? Start with being grateful and look out for those little beautiful things...

Make it like the flowers in the forrest ... grow, trust, search the light, hold on to yourself and the next thing to you.. get a connection... let the wind weigh you...

LOVE & LIGHT