Two hearts

Now I am back in Berlin, Germany and it has been two months ago that I was leaving Gothenburg. 

Leaving again, as it was my second time I was working there. This time much longer and in town. 

Thinking back now and watching the pics I have made. I feel my heart pounding. In a god way and it is also interesting, as it is more then I expected. 

As starting again in Berlin has become much more different as planed, I wonder, but have no regrets. 

You know, it seldom goes the way as planed and in the end mostly you see why this was better. 

Thought it can be a challenge to have patience with yourself and how things are going on.

One is to discover that bureaucracy has become worse since 2013 when it is to work in another country. Had I known this, maybe things have already went another way. But so it is and I have to do as needed. 

Even when I know much more then before that my heart is bound to Berlin, I still have part of it in Gothenburg. Of course, it never was such a bad place. It was the other way round and above the trouble I had, I had a god time and working there was nice and I learned so much. 

Lucky as I am, I am still in contact with my colleagues and that is a very nice feeling.

When I was in Thailand in January, I felt leaving was right and in the same time it began to feel like all what was happening is from a long time ago. Same now with my feelings of the Thailand journey. Feels already as it is from another life. Pictures can't bring back the feeling you had when you've been there. It's a memory of the fact what you felt. 

So looking at the picture from Gothenburg, I see the beauty and understand how easy it is to look over what was not so nice. In my mind I know the problems I had and why some things bothered me. But looking back is kind of doing it with a soft eye. 

Crazy thing is, when I am here I miss the other town. If I am there I miss my town here. Even known that I am more a -Berliner- and feel very comfortable here with all the things going on in town here, I sometimes still wonder, if I could live again soon in Gothenburg or Stockholm. But when I look on the job/ work I wanna do- I know I'll stay here quite a while. 

No, working in Sweden was nice, but how it went on was not the way I expected. But you live to learn and see how you can find the right way. 

Of course I am maybe thinking too much and just now I have more time as planed for such.

I wait for the time to know, how does it feel when I am working and learning again in Berlin. And how will it feel when I am back in Gothenburg to see my friends, colleagues and the places I worked at. 

When I left I was not that sure if Sweden would play a bigger part in my future. Now I think, it will, but maybe not that big just now, but maybe, many years from now I try it again, but who knows how the world, the politic and the private life will change. Maybe I first try England, as I am very curious to see how living there would be. So making my next journey when I have my holidays is already planed.

Yes, I am one of those who have to see the world, to try the things on other places and find out, if there is a place I am gonna settle down for a couple of years. 

I am free. Still have just myself to feed and pay my own bills. 

Sure not getting any younger but who can tell me it is impossible to try? No one! 

LOVE & LIGHT

licorice ice cream

an now Germany/ Alexanderplatz- Berlin