You do it!

You've for sure heard that things are more simple when you do this or that when it is about the -Do it yourself- thing. 

Industry has our money, now they want our time. So they created those new concept of- let the people do the work and call it  "Lifestyle". 

Ikea does it with big success. Many others too, like when you look for things to build something at home or plant in the garden. 

The spots on TV tell you it is easier and you will also keep money. 

Well the truth is, nothings is easier and you'll lose more money then you are aware of. 

Your flight is cheap, but then the hidden cost makes the fly expensive as before but then nowadays you do the most work too. You book by yourself, you check in by yourself, you print out the tickets at your home and even in hotels more and more check in by themselves. The companies tell us that all this also is going faster. But that's a lie. Just look closer how much time you spent home, waiting to leave your baggage or you even pay for not waiting to come into the plane. You have the work and the hotel, the companies will thank you for that as you spare them millions of Dollars. Yes, you even pay for the work you do. 

At the Baumarkt the handyman has to buy all the stuff to build up is house, his garage and a lot more, even the building instructions. The spots showed you how easy it is, as even kids can do it in the spot. Usually the work itself is all but easy and you maybe need also a doctor or minimum some aid as you are not a professional. There are differences between a professional and you. That's why there is division of labor. 

But we seem to not care and prefer listen to the spots we see or read in newspapers and so on. Actually this -Do it yourself- thing is not new and surprisingly still functional. 

They just got other names and other pictures and is labeled as -Lifestyle- and a -must have- thing. 

We are living in a time where everything should be updated and upgraded. All has to be on max and speeded up and be under control. As it makes your life more easy. 

Does it? Does your new watch really help you? Does it help to know how much you have to train, how your pulse is and bloodsucker? Or is this a machine controlling you? Are you the one who decide what to do in your life or is it already the industry? Many products have been made "just" for you and we give out all our data. They know next to all of us and can make us believe we want this and that. 

Why would we buy so many clothes and food which is not good for us or the nature? Why would we be blind on both eyes if not because we have been fooled. 

How then can we know, we live the way we want and are not being used to spare money, like when we celebrate a day of - let's all clean together our streets for one day- it's something good for you and for the others too, but the truth is we do work which cost a lot of money for free. We even believe we do it because of us, not because we have been told so- but sadly we have. 

How far we have come can we see as one time Nestlé had a Miao- O-Maten, an automat which gives out pet food for free, if you make a sound like a cat into the microphone. This microphone was not to reach standing up, no, you had to kneel or bow. 

Did the machine like the sound, then you got a free sample of the food. And people did. Just for a fucking sample they have been standing, sitting in dirt. That is sadomasochistic. 

But we are far into this. We buy all the products to get all the Lifestyle. We pay for each machine to be able to buy with our mobile, to sign contract with e-legitimations. Yes our mobiles are now able to check in, to show our ways and even get the blood pressure. We can do much more and we gladly buy all that we need for this and for the time and services. We are apes.

Sharing is caring is the next level. Killing jobs as we like to have things cheaper and forget what it is for, unpaid work. We share also our problems with the computers, as they come out not 100% ready and we are happy to help each other. And our computers are telling us it is our fault when something went wrong. 

So are we still free as we believe?

But even sharing has changed it's face. It means no longer I give something and enjoy my help or your joy, no it means when I give, you have to give back same or similar. It is now all about money or what things are worth. Question is, how much worth is your life in this race?

Now we have a lot of those self service. It sounds so good and just for us, for a modern human, for our short, but precious time.  

And the self service makes people happy, gives them a feeling of being strong and they get a positive feeling. Actually most don't like the self service, but that is the paradox. The perception of time is to keep in mind. Waiting for the waiter seems longer then get your meal by yourself and standing in the queue.

Another thing is the tailoring- the feeling that something is made just for you, something is special. You can e.g. choose the colour for your sport shoes and more at Nike per internet. This is work and time but people take it as an advantage. 

Actually people would prefer the machines then to wait. Why? We have the feeling of having things better under control. But is that the case? 

Do we have things under control if a machine we have installed next to our plants tells us via app what to do? Like- give me water, give me more light, give me fertilizer, need less light, it's to hot...?

Should this augured of our life not better be not in use! Things went the natural way before, why not now? 

And the idea of a smart home. Is it really that smart to have such a home? Not to mention the costs.

Critics of such are often bashed down with the words that all is free and nobody has to do it and all is for more freedom. Is it? Are we that free to do as we want in this upgrading world? Can we stay spontaneous? Is it not already that our every day life is planed by the world around us? The products we buy are more and more special and set us more and more in dependence and slavery. 

I believe it is time we talk about this before we do the next step in upgrading. 

Let's look closer what really is helpful and what is a hidden way to control us and make us the way the industry and politic wants us to have. Before we become machines without being aware of that, I believe we should wake up. 

Love & light

The leader sees underneath your clothes

How to get under the surface? Do we really want to go under the skin of someone? But then again, what lies underneath your cloths? We want to know people better. We even believe we know them as we see and read about them and what we read from them and what they tell us. But do we really? 

How to find out what you are about?

It's not the question who reads your posting and respond to it. It's not to see who repost your words and sentences. It's not to know when you will die or did you made the grammar test some made up for entertaining you on Facebook. 

It's not even the words you write to tell the world how you feel. Because all can be fake, all can be wrong, all can be censored. Ok. maybe not all, but much of it. May we be aware of it or not and you know, we believe our lies far to much and love them sometimes too, as they sound to good to you. 

But it is true, in each you find something true if you look closer. If you know how to look right, as you have to keep in mind that your worldview is just your own and so another human has another opinion. It's actually a secret and a miracle how we do understand each other quite so good. I have never been in the mind of anyone and I am sure no one has done it yet. Or am I wrong?

Not to mention that some people refuse to take a second look on things and believe the only right way to understand is their own. Then you can say what you want, you can pray as long you want and write letters, show the things, they just don't want to believe you as they don't believe in an alternative version. Sadly I have to call this also an experience I know. But I guess we all have had the luck to be part of such. 

Most of us will now say that with dear friends and family it is a bit different, and I hope so for the most of us to be it like that and in a positive way we'll see each other in less shadowed versions. I personaly also believe we will never know everything about us, above what some may say about the human they have a relationship with. You know those who claim to know all from each other. I think, we'll never do that. That is o.k.- I mean as I said you only stand in your own shoes and your mind is just your life. 

Anyway. How is it with the working life? Many believe to know their colleagues very well and to tell when they lie or make up things or are part of an intrigue. But is it really that way.

I have become very carfully to trust blind at work and as I have a higher position I look more sharply to what people do, how they act and what they say. Reading beetween the lines is a must, if you want to succee. 

Yes, one thing I always have in mind is to find ways to get under the surface. To see where the truth lies and the beauty, the potential of a worker. Especially when you have to lead a team which is not in balance and has not been for a while and some have given up believing, some only see things negative and some have become to comfort in the bad situation and most are afraid of changes. 

That's why as a new leader you have to find out fast how the most are thinking withouth being to obvious. As it is, you will be called weak so soon, if you ask to much. Another thing is to see what you can do as soon as possible to show effect and results to make them believe and trust in you and also you have to take the things in hand which most dislike and have hard to deal with. Show that you are not afraid of taking responsibility and also that you have no fear to talk with difficult people. 

But be patient. Nothing changes from one day to another, usually. Nothing changes from one month to another either. Yes, actually change can take time. And if it is about work routines then you have to keep in mind that to put up a new one takes about a half year and to let it settle down another one. With a high turnover it becomes longer. With other words make this understandable for your staff so they know what to expect. Usually they want all now not later but know in the same time it will be later but then many are so tired of hearing things will get better, later, and they did not in the end. 

So be gentle as a leader like a craftsman with his machine or like the carver with an old piece of wood. Like when he takes away the old color and let the real wood shine through. So has a leader to go step by step and take away the painted mask to see what's underneath. 

And use words wisely and communicate as much as you can. Yes, talk, talk, talk, and explain, explain and ask if they have understood.  Most employees forget to soon and many have a way to misunderstanding you will sometimes wondering how they could do. Then remember all have their own mind and see with different eyes. Never expect they fully understand. 

I am sure many of us have made the experience on team meetings that some always come up with the same question, some say they remember different, thought they can read what you wrote down and those are different letters to what they claim. 

Never underestimate the need of talking and telling you their needs. All know you are the leader and the boss is telling the rules and the pyramide in the company is clear, they usually want a word in all otherwise they start to dislike you and if you have bad luck they start hating you and become a rebel to your planes. Thought sometimes you just have to make clear that some decisions are to make and you are the one to tell them and they have to take it like it is. 

But if you succee you can enjoy it, thought never lay down and believe work is done. To lead is to see further then the team and to discover the traps before they'll do. But in the moment you succee, yes, smile and enjoy like the carver enjoys the visibility of real wood.

Love & Light

It's the Doctor...Who?

Forbidden Love is always a theme in the doctors diary but also the question how to solve a problem and get through another adventure. Something we want to experience too, won't we?

We like to flee from our everyday life once in a while. See new things and be curious and open minded, being strong and have some mad man next to you and in the same time enjoy a ride into space and time. 

Yes, the question always remains since the series started. Who is he? What is his real name, does he have one? Does he still know? 

His companion are always our eyes to his world and they try to solve our questions and his drive. 

They help him to remind sane and also to do the right thing. 

I like the fact that this series mix old times, future , space places and earth adventures. They use to also take place in real history and facts. 

But the series is actually also much in our time with the our question put in adventures the Doctor and his companions try to survive. The question of politics and our every day life. The way we act and the question how mankind believe, it will survive, even know this series shows that mankind will do, but the question it shows is also how. Science fiction series use to tell us much about the way people act and think and the habits we are unaware. But they also give us always a chance and show a way out and to think out of the box. They use to be more open and modern as other series. 

Yes, I like Doctor Who, because it does not matter who or what you are. And gladly they really do not give a shit about your sexuality. A tree women fancies the doctor or lesbians are fighting together with him, worth as all the others, equal in his eyes. A lesbian lizard and bisexual characters, gay heros and interspecies relationships, a transgender horse and much more and even a man called Captain Jack got his own category as he fancies everyone and everyone fancies him. Even the Queen is in love with that mad man with his many faces. 

Which is one reason of the success actually. The change of his face and body to fool the death, thought he can do this only 12 times. But that does not matter now. His character evolve, he change and has to find himself always a new. Think of that chance and we call it luck but with him we also see the price and also the price of living so long. Sometimes to long. 

But then we like how he is funny, clever, smart, grumpy, earnest and stupid. He acts like a whirlwind and sometimes comes through like a storm and other times he seems to be such a dumb and dull alien so his companion are up to no god to help him out. 

I came across this show through the series Torchwood which is actually made out of Dr. Who. And when I lived in Sweden I was able to watch the Show on TV as it is nearly not able to be seen in Germany.

Now I start to watch from the very beginning of the series as it is on TV over 50 years! 

The first Doctor, an old and grumpy man and not very nice but changes with time into a man who takes things serious and takes also a look on to what action have in reactions. He understands that each thing he does leads to something more. 

It is fun to watch this, as I was not sure if I would like the old version and black and white TV Show and obvious plastic set in the background and for our eyes now, bad technic. 

And after all, it is entertaining, amusing, chilling and also surprisingly fun mixed with horror. You'll never know the next level. Thought the last doctor which is now airing in England and America is a challenge. First it was the scrips, now I don't know as I did not seen them. The change was always good, but now the question  is also who writes the stories. It seems new fans like it but older miss the mix, the special touch this show had. Mixed feelings among the fans but then it seems that all just maybe needed time and to remember the producers to remember why they have been good. 

Well, we'll see how this will go on and how long, as fans now must face the end of this series. Not knowing when or how and so many questions remain open and we all know some will never be answered as this is a reason to watch the show. But the Doctor has to die. 

Then again, you are still able to learn a thing or two from watching the show. That the loudest voice is not those who tell always the truth. That a little hug can help more then a big talk, but that communication in a team is all. Being a good leader means to do it without telling people what to do and this is actually something I try to put in my work. Also to listen more carefully and see the bigger picture and behind. 

But I would absolute leave for a ride in the blue box. If I hear the sound of the Tardis, I would run and find out where it has landed to get in. But in the same time I understood long ago that if you look on your own life with the right eyes, there are adventures everywhere and things to discover, to solve, to learn and get stronger, to fight and to change yourself and the question, how open minded are you. 

And you, how about you?

LOVE & LIGHT

Workin' monday through friday

After a hard works week many of us try to calm down and get some rest and want to feel peace. 

But there is often not much time for it. We have to keep up with the housecleaning, buy the food for the next week, wash our clothes and then we have family and friends. 

How do we manage then to get some energy back, as we are working it of from monday to friday? Not to mention those who work 7 days or more in a row. And always the money problem in the back, the question what to do next, what to buy and what to plan and so on and on. Sometimes it seems other people have it more easier then you, but actually most of us have it the same way more or lesson. 

Sometimes we even wonder how big families make it through the day itself. Working all day and then working home for the children and that nothing breaks apart. 

How will we reach a peaceful moment? 

We try it with sport. We meditate and do yoga. We do it as much as we can and often make it a competition. Most time with ourself. 

Many people believe to get peace and be yourself is only possible on special places and just to reach on holidays. Even then they make it a competition, something they plan they have to, they must achieve. 

But they all forget that getting a minute to breath in and out and feel relax is nothing you can enforce. The more you try it, the less success you will have and the more you are on the way to depression and bad mood. Exactly what you don't wanted. 

So, many flee into religious. And make it a sport to pray and live after some rules they don't questioning. Maybe after a while some of those people are convince that they have found inner peace and the right way. Religious often does and have this effect on people. Especially in the beginning. 

Even when you try to be a monk you can be wrong with believing that you are in the middle of yourself every time. The truth is- no one is and will be, but that is o.k.. 

Most then say they do fight to keep control and to stay in the middle but fighting just cost energy and gives you hopeless depression on it's way. 

So one thing is to understand that you have to let go fighting, which does not mean to give up everything and yourself, it is more to let lose and enjoy the moment and take it as it comes and try to avoid to name it or even if you do, so name it and put it away and get back to the present, the moment you are in and search for the best and positive.  

And no, you don't need a place without noise, traffic, work, people surrounding you. All you have to do is to let those things gone buy and take them as a part of your reality. Then you will feel peace. Then you will have the way to relax and calm down and get energy back. 

So taking a walk can have this effect. Sitting in a coffee, and taste the drink for real and smell the air and maybe just close your eyes for a moment and let things just pass buy. Then trouble can be around you and you will still feel good. 

We have to remember more often that all is in flow and nothing last forever and you always have a choice, even know that it is not always the easy way and sometimes it is just to vote from two bad things. But when we did, we can go on and have the next chance. 

Also we should remember whatever bad happen, we can catch good moment by our self and if it just to buy and ice cream and enjoy the moment of luxury. 

This will then also be the secret to make it good in your job and to find always a best way to get through tuff times, even know this also sounds more easy as it is. We are humans and have learned a lot to make it hard. This won't always leave us so easy. 

I know that as I have to face many times unpopular situation and discussion in my job and also I must be able to take into not so nice situations. I also have to remember myself to let lose and find something different after the job to get back to the energy I need for a hard work. But also I try to have it good at work as much as possible with keeping my empathy, mood and try to stay relax as I have learned that nothing breaks down immediately. You always have time to relax and can always make it go round again if something went wrong or another way as expected. It's the challenge I take as such and then I always try to see that I work with people who stand on their own place. Not judging is a part of that. 

Not always easy. 

Communication is also very important. They need to know. Whatever you do or it is- talk and talk and stay calm and have a minimum of understanding but also I try to be truthful in how fast or how much we can change things in the situation we are in. 

In these days when things get more and more unclear, unsure and stressful it is so important for each to remember to relax as we feel in our shoulders when we have stressed our self to much, when we expect to much, when we rush to fast and we feel it with other sorts of pain. 

It has a reason why I recommend massage and physiotherapy. It is why I spend money on it, even thought there are other things I would like t spend money to but health is so important and we learn this far to less and far to many are not really aware of the importance. 

And yes do your sport, meditation, yoga etc. but do it freely, do it without hesitating and let lose of competition. Just do it and try to have fun. And if you have a bad day, make a break and try again or another time. Not everyday is a good day to meditate.... but the more you practice, the better you'll get, the easier it will be and even then be aware there will be days you just can't make it. There will be days your meditation is a hard try and that is all. Don't worry, like with sport and yoga, just take it as it is and go on. Next time it will be better again.

Love & Light

Listen to my words! European Day Of Language...

Today is European day of languages and I guess we all have in on one or another way experienced the importance of our words. 

Words matters as we make ourself understood for others but also words are the reason for a lot of misunderstanding and even the tools for lies and harm.

Just your mother languages is so important that you have hard to survive without being able to communicate. Lucky are we to live in a world where we can write words down and even the sign language is more common and known. 

Language is also your way to success or fall. Just in my nursing job I have to watch my language very carefully, not only in the way how I speak to people, what to tell them, also what I write down to report or when I write to the doctors, as I am not allowed to diagnose, but to give the doctor a clear wink. But I also have to watch my words for potential lawsuits. 

These days I work many times with nurses and other staff from other countries and so language has become more then important as I have to remind myself to speak clear, easy and slow as possible. 

I lived in Sweden and also worked there and so I learned swedish and could therefor work quite well and understand my patients, colleagues and had a good connection to the doctors and many times by phone, which is in a foreign language all but easy. 

Language is also culture. The more we speak, the more words we use the more we will understand our own culture and those of others. That's why reading is so important. 

Even when you believe you know enough, be sure that one truth is always out there- you'll never know enough! You'll learn that when you start to feel ambition to become more then you are just in the moment, when you want more out of life and when you realize that you have the ability to be better and bigger. At least when you become a leader of a crowd you will quickly understand, that your words not only matters, those words you tell are the communication and image you send out and this will give to people the impression if you are right for your position or not. Never underestimate the need of other people to hear your words and to be listened and get answered even if the answer sounds similar. And never believe it is not such a big thing to put a talking a week later without need will do no harm. 

Remember language is also the reason for gossip and preconceptions. They will possibly believe you are not earnest with your project. Or worse that you don't take them seriously.

In my job I have to talk a lot to my people and also to relative of our patients as again and again can get the impression of wrong understanding or better said; they may understood it right first, but remember then all wrong or part of it, so I have to make a correction. I also try then to get an answer which shows me if they understood or not. This does not make sure that they will still remember the right understanding next time we meet. Especially when you work with your staff, make sure to talk and talk and talk about similar things as many listen just the moment and then forget. That's why many staff members believe they did not get the mention of a project or change or they should have been asked, or they believe you did things without informing them. Many bosses forget that or are unaware of that problem and the challenge that means. 

That's why I try to make team meetings as often as possible and try to put in as much as I can, but not to much, as people can get tired. Also I make sure to take up stuff which is not so nice and put the truth as possible on the table. Your people will more likely believe in you and be with you. 

And then let's not forget to keep in mind, when you work with people from another country to get to know how they use to communicate. It makes a big difference and that is something we almost forget. 

And if you want to work in another country- please read all the books and ask your friends in the countries how people use to be and communicate. It will spare you a lot of bad luck and more important will keep you people friendly and helpful. The mistakes are so easy to make, even if we are quite international these days. 

But don't be afraid, it is not all hard work. Get to know a new language and also therefore the culture is a lot of fun and amusement. The joy you will be able to achieve is worth all the learning and awaken nights. For me it is also very interesting how much it helps me to understand other countries, if I can read the press, understand the TV and News and cinemas and books. I also get another view on my own country and our habits and image we have and what we believe we are in your eyes. 

And even my friends in other countries help me to understand the world, myself and a lot of whys, hows and so on. 

I am heard of hearing and so happy to have hearing aids and feel a little helpless and out of this world, like when I am not part of it, when they are not functional. I am also very grateful to have met people who shows understanding but also take me the way I am and yes with a little help of humor it all got me far and will bring me further. Misunderstanding is therefor something I really know for sure. 

In that way... we have a lot to think about the potential of our languages and can be happy that we speak and so lets use positive words and try to avoid negative talking. If our future has to become better, then it depends of the use of strong and positive words. 

Happy european language day and I hope I could make myself understood. 

LOVE & LIGHT

Once in Sweden

Now it is nearly a year ago that I started working in Sweden a second time. Thought it feels unreal that times flies that way and I am pretty sure if I had decided to stay, I would work there and be happy, but I did decide to be back in Berlin and to study on University. 

After all, this year is all about the future and getting near me, myself and I- to make changes. 

Yes, some things must be left to start new things and for some things I feel simple too old, and not because I think it is not allowed to do this and that because of my age, it is just simple, I feel the time is over for some things. 

Does not mean I discover them again in a view years. 

But what I was not so sure of was Sweden in future as I thought it maybe would be the end of our story, but it seems it will not be like that. As a town people of course it is much about Gothenburg and Stockholm. Over the years I got to know them better and because of my friends I also got to know things better there. Thank you for that!

It is very much a difference if you are a tourist or actually living there. 

As I worked in Gothenburg I remember the places and names of them much better and could walk with closed eyes and I still dream and think in Swedish and even at work sometimes I first know/ remember the swedish word before I catch the german version. 

Sure when it is about the weather it is very clear that Berlin wins high. But as I already know you can have a good year there and here and also very much have a cold summer and rainy days. Sometimes it is warmer in Sweden then in Germany or Berlin. Even in winter it can happen and happened that it was very much colder in Berlin then it was in Gothenburg and Stockholm. 

What I like to remember from Sweden is the relaxing way of living they use to have, thought it can led to being lazy and unable to do something, but Berlin has a way of being aggressive under the surface. This town Berlin has still much to learn and conquer and to get used to the diversity of people and make them part of it all as it is in London t.ex.. 

As I like architecture it is always interesting to see how buildings are in other countries and why I like them or not or how you can see the age of a town and the history and styles through the centuries. 

I very much like it t.ex. that the roofs of the new buildings are not flat like it used to be in Germany. You don't feel like living in a box and it seems more natural, like a tent. Which also makes them look nicer and the wood look is something I appreciate in Sweden, even know most new buildings do not have wood walls. They just look like that. But this also gives me a warmer feeling of a town. 

I also remember my colleagues with whom I worked in Gothenburg. They all have been very patience with me and respectful and also gave me the chance to learn and grow and get to know them. It is not a simple thing you can expect but I was a lucky one to have such good companies around me and I am very happy to still be in contact with them. The work in Sweden gave me much and I learned a lot and also it showed me how much we have to do in Germany to reach a better level in nursing again. The situation is far worse in Germany as you may believe and even known not all is just good in Sweden, it is much more fun and was for me- to work there. After all, work should be also something you like and get up to every morning (or next to every day). 

When you get friends in Sweden, in my experience, they are very open minded and warm then to you and will welcome you and that is not so easy to achieve as you may think. So again, I call myself lucky. 

Just now I remember all this, but you can be sure I have also the not so good things in mind, as it is everywhere the case- no place is perfect. 

Now some pictures , some you may already know and some you never saw at my side... and have a great July.

LOVE & LIGHT

Two hearts

Now I am back in Berlin, Germany and it has been two months ago that I was leaving Gothenburg. 

Leaving again, as it was my second time I was working there. This time much longer and in town. 

Thinking back now and watching the pics I have made. I feel my heart pounding. In a god way and it is also interesting, as it is more then I expected. 

As starting again in Berlin has become much more different as planed, I wonder, but have no regrets. 

You know, it seldom goes the way as planed and in the end mostly you see why this was better. 

Thought it can be a challenge to have patience with yourself and how things are going on.

One is to discover that bureaucracy has become worse since 2013 when it is to work in another country. Had I known this, maybe things have already went another way. But so it is and I have to do as needed. 

Even when I know much more then before that my heart is bound to Berlin, I still have part of it in Gothenburg. Of course, it never was such a bad place. It was the other way round and above the trouble I had, I had a god time and working there was nice and I learned so much. 

Lucky as I am, I am still in contact with my colleagues and that is a very nice feeling.

When I was in Thailand in January, I felt leaving was right and in the same time it began to feel like all what was happening is from a long time ago. Same now with my feelings of the Thailand journey. Feels already as it is from another life. Pictures can't bring back the feeling you had when you've been there. It's a memory of the fact what you felt. 

So looking at the picture from Gothenburg, I see the beauty and understand how easy it is to look over what was not so nice. In my mind I know the problems I had and why some things bothered me. But looking back is kind of doing it with a soft eye. 

Crazy thing is, when I am here I miss the other town. If I am there I miss my town here. Even known that I am more a -Berliner- and feel very comfortable here with all the things going on in town here, I sometimes still wonder, if I could live again soon in Gothenburg or Stockholm. But when I look on the job/ work I wanna do- I know I'll stay here quite a while. 

No, working in Sweden was nice, but how it went on was not the way I expected. But you live to learn and see how you can find the right way. 

Of course I am maybe thinking too much and just now I have more time as planed for such.

I wait for the time to know, how does it feel when I am working and learning again in Berlin. And how will it feel when I am back in Gothenburg to see my friends, colleagues and the places I worked at. 

When I left I was not that sure if Sweden would play a bigger part in my future. Now I think, it will, but maybe not that big just now, but maybe, many years from now I try it again, but who knows how the world, the politic and the private life will change. Maybe I first try England, as I am very curious to see how living there would be. So making my next journey when I have my holidays is already planed.

Yes, I am one of those who have to see the world, to try the things on other places and find out, if there is a place I am gonna settle down for a couple of years. 

I am free. Still have just myself to feed and pay my own bills. 

Sure not getting any younger but who can tell me it is impossible to try? No one! 

LOVE & LIGHT

licorice ice cream

an now Germany/ Alexanderplatz- Berlin