I like winter. It shows the nature pure and very clear. Especially if it had snowed. Then you can watch the earth beetween the trees and find a new landscape. You see how big thinks really are or with a lot of snow their becoming bigger then before. Very much like a look back on a year. A silent and -take your time- look back can make you see thinks clear.
So what is a good year? Was it a goood year? I guess a friend of mine is right. It needs, luck, bad luck, lessons, challenges and happiness. It needs laughter and cry and fighting and letting go.
So more or lesson a bit of everything as long we see our lessons and still get up on our feet- that is what makes a good year. Mostly.
Looking back at my working year, it was absolutely stuned andhad a lot of changes and I had a lot to learn, to get through and to understand.
For me it was a very special year as I started my year with a new job, because I could not stay at my old working place. Not because things did not went well, it was simple that my place was just for a limited time. So I had to leave and start again on a new place. Well I started working for home nursing- means where nurses drive to your home and help you there, so you can stay home insteadt of being in an old peoples house or in the hospital. I worked there as a manager of quality and some times as a nurse too, thought I never imagined coming back to that area of nursing. I help building up this new company and mostly first I hade to correct things. A lot of work in a short time, but the results were really god as the control test of the insury company gave us the best note. Sadly the stress and bad conditions and so the bad start made that my boss changed her attitude and way of being with her staff. She became not very nice and hard to deal with. But the biggest challanges came from the mother firm who never cared about our situation. They never wanted to work with us, we just had to take it as they thought it should be. Capitalism in it's pure form it was and the price had everyone to pay. This and other reasons made me feel bad going to work as I had a very uncomfortable feeling in my stomach every morning, because too many things did not went the way it should and trying to make it better did not help much and then there was too many things not really legal or in the grey zone. Much to think about like how much are you able to take and how much do you have to eccapt. What are you worth? For them it was clear and for me... very clear and so I fired myself as this was the best I could do and after all, I had done all that was needed to build up and make it work. Short time- the shortest time I ever worked for someone.
Another lesson was also to not take the first job if you are not really feeling god with the decision.
I found with this job back to another side of mine which I forgot to cherish once in a while. So all things have its good end.
So new job searching and as I was ready I not long after that decided to try it in Sweden again.
Lucky me, I got the chance to vote where I want to work as I got more then one, two, three positive results after my interviews.
Well being in another country and also work there is something to do when you are fearless.
Yes, my head went hot in the sommer when I started work. I could speak swedish already, but it was a long time to have it 24/7 around me. Not much space left for other things.
Now I am at the end of this journey and I can say I had big luck having great collegues and even thought all went different as planed and hoped, I hade fun working.
As it is, I had to decide again what to do as things did not went the way as hoped. So I looked up my chances in Sweden and in Berlin my home town and unfortunade but lucky me, I got the positive result to work in Berlin for a company I had hoped I could work for and the best thing is, it will be my new way, as nusring will end with my last day in Sweden (which is also the last day of the year). My new jobb will also give me the chance to study and this was never a think I planed all the years. I never thought I would like to do that. But now it seems right and I don't care my age.
Nursing will end and so this working on every place and in next to every kind which is existing is kind of logical in the end. The circle is closing with this and that is another reason why I am very calm about my future. I have learned my lessons and I am happy for the next step in my working life.
As it is, I was already thinking about this new way. Being a teacher for nurses.
I can imagine myself doing this jobb and then with the years taking over more the boss jobb and being kind of a Dumbledore. Yes with such cloths, smile and beard. :-)
Who knows. :-)
But also so many things in private life came to an end and others are now ready to start their time.
It was absolutely all but an easy year, but one of my happiest.
I enjoy the freedom I take and have and all the things I am able to do.
I enjoy living the way I do.
I sure have my ups and downs but more and more their becoming seldom as I feel more and more just good.
I can now find easy luck and joy in little things.
And I am not even far as I want to be- there is a long , long way to walk but I have a hunch, no matter what- I stay positive. As I see many things changing now around me and I understand quite some of them, the reasons why and the way they are, I am curious to meet new people, seeing more countries and keeping in contact with those I know as long it will be.
There is a time for everything.
And that is good.
Love & Light
So what is a good year? Was it a goood year? I guess a friend of mine is right. It needs, luck, bad luck, lessons, challenges and happiness. It needs laughter and cry and fighting and letting go.
So more or lesson a bit of everything as long we see our lessons and still get up on our feet- that is what makes a good year. Mostly.
Looking back at my working year, it was absolutely stuned andhad a lot of changes and I had a lot to learn, to get through and to understand.
For me it was a very special year as I started my year with a new job, because I could not stay at my old working place. Not because things did not went well, it was simple that my place was just for a limited time. So I had to leave and start again on a new place. Well I started working for home nursing- means where nurses drive to your home and help you there, so you can stay home insteadt of being in an old peoples house or in the hospital. I worked there as a manager of quality and some times as a nurse too, thought I never imagined coming back to that area of nursing. I help building up this new company and mostly first I hade to correct things. A lot of work in a short time, but the results were really god as the control test of the insury company gave us the best note. Sadly the stress and bad conditions and so the bad start made that my boss changed her attitude and way of being with her staff. She became not very nice and hard to deal with. But the biggest challanges came from the mother firm who never cared about our situation. They never wanted to work with us, we just had to take it as they thought it should be. Capitalism in it's pure form it was and the price had everyone to pay. This and other reasons made me feel bad going to work as I had a very uncomfortable feeling in my stomach every morning, because too many things did not went the way it should and trying to make it better did not help much and then there was too many things not really legal or in the grey zone. Much to think about like how much are you able to take and how much do you have to eccapt. What are you worth? For them it was clear and for me... very clear and so I fired myself as this was the best I could do and after all, I had done all that was needed to build up and make it work. Short time- the shortest time I ever worked for someone.
Another lesson was also to not take the first job if you are not really feeling god with the decision.
I found with this job back to another side of mine which I forgot to cherish once in a while. So all things have its good end.
So new job searching and as I was ready I not long after that decided to try it in Sweden again.
Lucky me, I got the chance to vote where I want to work as I got more then one, two, three positive results after my interviews.
Well being in another country and also work there is something to do when you are fearless.
Yes, my head went hot in the sommer when I started work. I could speak swedish already, but it was a long time to have it 24/7 around me. Not much space left for other things.
Now I am at the end of this journey and I can say I had big luck having great collegues and even thought all went different as planed and hoped, I hade fun working.
As it is, I had to decide again what to do as things did not went the way as hoped. So I looked up my chances in Sweden and in Berlin my home town and unfortunade but lucky me, I got the positive result to work in Berlin for a company I had hoped I could work for and the best thing is, it will be my new way, as nusring will end with my last day in Sweden (which is also the last day of the year). My new jobb will also give me the chance to study and this was never a think I planed all the years. I never thought I would like to do that. But now it seems right and I don't care my age.
Nursing will end and so this working on every place and in next to every kind which is existing is kind of logical in the end. The circle is closing with this and that is another reason why I am very calm about my future. I have learned my lessons and I am happy for the next step in my working life.
As it is, I was already thinking about this new way. Being a teacher for nurses.
I can imagine myself doing this jobb and then with the years taking over more the boss jobb and being kind of a Dumbledore. Yes with such cloths, smile and beard. :-)
Who knows. :-)
But also so many things in private life came to an end and others are now ready to start their time.
It was absolutely all but an easy year, but one of my happiest.
I enjoy the freedom I take and have and all the things I am able to do.
I enjoy living the way I do.
I sure have my ups and downs but more and more their becoming seldom as I feel more and more just good.
I can now find easy luck and joy in little things.
And I am not even far as I want to be- there is a long , long way to walk but I have a hunch, no matter what- I stay positive. As I see many things changing now around me and I understand quite some of them, the reasons why and the way they are, I am curious to meet new people, seeing more countries and keeping in contact with those I know as long it will be.
There is a time for everything.
And that is good.
Love & Light
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