thinking about a world

Thinking about a year with a lot of chaos inside
People still die and people still cry
Thinking about a lot of demonstration for the right...
the right to love who you love
the right to be the same as you 
no matter if you're black or white
thinking about a year gone by
so loud it could be heard outside the planet earth
so quite it hurts that no soul is screaming,
screaming stop!
scream that this here is wrong, so wrong
this war is going on for much to long
this lie is told for much to often
your words still try to soften
but the truth must be told
if a change will lose it's -should-
I think about a year and all the people
people who run to the loudest voice
no matter if this voice is right and telling lies
no matter if that place they run to is to cry
people who are so afraid
people who are so blind and forgot what mama said
people who forgot to listen to their inner soul
people who are lost and had never to decide
decide in the last time but now they must
even know they won't, they don't like, cos they don't know
or if they can stand their own truth and see their own lies
so- people who learned to be blind must waken sometimes
people who are afraid it will hurt will know- yes it will hurt
no matter how hard you try to hide
it will always hurt inside
no matter how long you wait
you have to pay
I think of a world in chaos- but it was once worse
I think of a world in change- and I wonder where are we going
I think of a world where many still have not understand
if you want to have a chance, you must take a stand
you must see that old ways are never the future
you must see that new ways must be found
because this is the only chance for a bright future
otherwise things will rebound
if we stand together, love each other and teach one another
and after all find together new ways
find together new days, 
find together in our heart- that standing apart will make us losen the game
losen our faith, losen our love, losen the change
 
So
I think of a world who has to waken
I think of a world with people who are waken already
I think of a world with people deep sleeping
I think of a world changing
I think of a world coming out of the dark and it is getting loud
it is getting hard
it is getting big and  large
but it is getting better
I think of a future in peace, even know it may always be a dream
I think of a year gone by and all the trouble we have had inside
I think of the fact that this is all very natural, but has to be taken honest
taken honest now, cos being a coward is the losers choice
so listen to your inner voice
instead of running to the nearest  and loudest noise
go into the light
take the way of love
take your time cos otherwise you'll be blinded and hurt
take it slow but go step by step
then you can teach the children of the war, those warrios of the blind
where the sun lies and the hope is to find
where the love lies and the laughter cries
where the future is bright
 

LOVE & LIGHT

Make Love and lose the hate

That is maybe the most important thing in live. 
To love and let the hate go. 
Hate is just a sign of how week you are, how less you use your mind and soul and heart, how less you are, how deep you sit in shit. 
Yes some people think hate is such a powerful and strong instrument to keep up with, cos it brings fear and joy to you, the one who is beaten up another one and it gave you the feeling of being more worth, being stronger and better, but guess what..?!... and you know it deep inside you-  YOU ARE WEAK. 
A strong person never need to beat up someone, never need to bring fear, never need to arrest someone who just love another human, never need to claim wrong things as reasons for his actions.
If you are strong and true, then corruption is something you never need. 
If you live by your heart and not blinded by some folks, then you never need to kill an animal without need.
If you are smart, you never need to keep a child from having parents, no matter where they come from, as long as they love and care for you.
If you are taking words serious that we are equal, then you never need to push a women down, or a child or a disabled or someone with another religious believe or skin color.
If you are someone who claims to live the words of Jesus Christ, then you never need to beat a man or a women because they love who they love, cos love the man next to you, like you love yourself. 
Love is Love and if you put hate in in, then you are the one I think we have to call pity and sad and stupid.
Although in each of us there is love put in the heart from the beginning and hate is a learned thing.
To hate is learned. No child hates. It learns how to hate. It learns fear and fear makes hate. Fear makes blind and blind people have mostly closed eyes and forget to learn and think by them self and listen to their heart. 
It's much like this. 
Cos love will never destroy your marriage, the mankind or your children. 
Cos a gay man will never abuse your child and is worth his life and love.
So why beaten him up, just because he loves. 
He is born that way, and if you are heterosexual you are born that way too or did you made that choice? When, how and did you try the other side? 
It's natural, it always was part of this world, no matter if your human or an animal.
Why are you so afraid of sexuality...? Is it to keep an blind eye on your own situation, which is bad and your own fault.
Yes, I am so sorry, but you are the reason for the bad situation in your country as a human and it has nothing to do with your sex, with who you love and where you're from.

Dear Russians I respect people in general, but nevertheless I am very sad about some laws you have, sad about how you waste money to corruption, how you let human rights killed by your man and am so sad to see and hear how you go on beaten yourself, hurting yourself instead of making it stop, breath and think calm what to to, how to make it better, how to make it more shiny and brighter. 
Instead you kill, you beat, you hate and even you as a reader are not doing it exactly - did you tell something to your people to make it better? Did you say stop? Or did you just say it is all not that bad and the gays fault and other countries should not talk about your problems?
Well the LGBTI Community knows it very well what is going on and feels very well in their own heart what is going on in Russia, because we all have been going through this. That's why we keep up on the fight.

Yes it is not only in Russia people are becoming Nazis again. 
I remember very well the rising in other countries. But also I do remember how you started right after '89 to throw out the WolgaDeutschen, then the Jews and then the black and so on and now you have found the gays. They seem so weak, so easy to be beaten, the reason for your problems but you know it very well, there are not. 
Keeping a blind eye on your countries problems by killing gays won't help you to not drown in your own shit. 

And God will never love you for this, cos remember hate is the devils part. 

So that's why we go on the streets and light a rainbow flame. Cos we are all of different colors and the Olympic was in it's idea about peace, friendship and love. 
You betrayed the Idea, the love, the friendship, the sportsman, the children and your own future. 
Your Olympic is a sign of black shame. 
So shame on you. Shame on the IOC. Shame on Putin. Shame on all those who are in silence, because you let it happen and therefore you are part of this black and dirty game. So sorry to tell you this. 
And I know not everyone thinks the same in Russia. 
I know the industry doesn't care about people. 
I know the politics mostly even don't care about human rights.

But I know that I still keep on believing. 
I still keep on believing that the future can be made better. 
I believe that people can learn and be true to them self.
I believe we have a lot good in our baggage but also we have a way to go.
I believe that human rights should be the same for all people on this world, no matter where you are.
I believe that hate will kill yourself and cause hurting to all the people around you and you will pay a high price for it.
I believe and know it from my work, that when you are going to die, the hate will keep you maybe alive but for the price of pure pain and you will regret it so deeply if you never lived up to making peace.
I believe that you have to forgive yourself for the hate you lived but as hard this is, it is possible, but for this, you have to SEE and CHANGE into living a life in Love.

And I believe in Love.

LOVE & LIGHT

we are with our hearts by your side.... no one should be harmed just because he loves someone else

there is also a song called "Love is not for propaganda" on i tune to buy and every cent will be given to the LGBTI groups in Russia to fight for their rights to love

the rainbow flame will be there all the time the games are going on.. we will be there too, talk to you, so you can ask your questions, we will be there to protect human rights, the flame, the love and the hope

even Jane Fonda is watching and will take care of the flame on Potsdamer Platz in Berlin

4. July

So my thoughts goes to America the USA again. It is 4. July and it's a celebration Day there. The flag will be waving in the wind and all will hold their speech and prayers and tell us it's the home of the free, the land for each and everyone. But we know this is not the reality. People do make difference to each of another. Sadly but true, the home of the free, the land for each is not that free as it always is told. But are not we in the same position. So- who's gonna throw the first stone?

A couple of days ago the DOMA was fallen and it was a big celebration time for many, although this is just one step in time we do. Actually, just one little but important step for LOVE is LOVE and it's a natural thing and not only science tells you so and no the Bible is actually not telling that is all a sin to be gay.... the words are different you read- but who of you actually have read the Bible? Next to every home in the USA has this book but very less read it. Or just reading parts of it... So who of them have read it through till the end?... Less, but we are fast to tell what we've heard... 

Anyway... this made me thinking of a show which next to ten years ago was on the screen.
QAF- Queer as Folk. So I took the DVDs out and watched it again and was surprised how up to date the show still is. The same fighting, the same, love, the same questions, the same hate, the same reality of different kinds of families. Thinking about what I see I ask myself what would be different - maybe- if they would make the show today? 
Maybe that fighting thing... all those fighting against something... will never get you the easy way and people will hate you again and again, but fighting or better standing up for something... that will do a change. 
But I must say that I have the feeling what is going on in this show can still happen. In good and bad. I mean the bomb attack was not long ago a reality in Tel Aviv. The families fighting for the right to have a child, because they care the same like all the others. 
A fighting I know from friends who will be surly good parents. 
Also the question is a single mother bad for you? I never thought it was bad for me. Or what if your childhood was not that good? Like in the show ... would you be a broken human? No, because that was once and today is now, a different time and you can make the new way with your choice and why looking back when you are the only one to blame. 

The show also has a part about the fourth of July and the question... Who is the real "American", what was the dream so many people after world war 2 had. What did it became? 
What price are we willing to pay? And why not finally give the hand to equal marriage, cos this will harm no one and cause no bad influence or effect. Just look around and see... It never does. 
But also maybe we should start changing about the way we think about marriage. Well, mostly in the western world. What does it mean? Giving up yourself? Your dreams? Yourself? Why then marry someone who gives up themself for you? Who will this partner be? Why do so many still think they need someone, to be a whole human? You are one and perfectly made and as people say, god made you after him. So no matter how you are, you are perfect. And I mean it also for those who have a handicap. 
But why give up things you love, just because of marriage? Would this be being honest to yourself? Why not telling your partner, let's live together or hey dude, let's have each their own home, 'cos love needs no boundaries. Or why is it such a big problem for so many to let the loved one have sex with another person once in a while if the need is there.? When did this became such a problem? Many years ago- but hundreds of years it was no problem, just a reality of many. 
A marriage should less be a prison, but have respect and honest... thought so...

Maybe that would be the difference they would make when they made the show today, but anyway it is worth watching again for all of as, because we see a lot to learn and remember and then ask ourself... Isn't life the same in many ways? Cancer, babies, worries, job, drugs, hopes and fail.... and oh so different- like they say on the show, each people is like a snowflake... from the distance alike but when you look near each is unlike no other, so is your family, so are your friends. They are all snowflakes- lovely and there for you when you're in need of someone... for whatever... This is the truth. 
So what does this 4. July stand for these days? Is there a chance to give it a new meaning a new try? 
Let's think about it!
LOVE & LIGHT

I'm so over black...

I'm tired. I'm tired. I'm tired of explaining why... all people who love like me should be treated equally.
Lesbians, Gays and Transsexual should deserve the same respect and they all - and also their families- need the same protecting from the country and it's law. And Children are as a part for us as for all the others too. 
We are allowed to work as doctors, nurses- save live, we are allowed to drive a car, a train, a tram and underground, also we are allowed to be your therapist and social workers and when you are dying we can be on your side to hold your hands...We make you proud for being a god and successful sportsman and bring home the medals. We can conduct research in the universities. You ask us when you need a teacher, a soldier, a cock or a bartender, a dancer, an architect or when you in need of an judge. 
We are all someones child, brother and sister, someones aunt or uncle, cousin or neighbor, friend or colleague. We've been called when you have trouble, are lovesick or need help with money. We are a very pleased guest to help renovating your home and building up your furnitures. And if you need a babysitter we come and let you party too...we also are career role models for you and others and then we also cherish our parents, grandparents as it is absolutely normal for all of us. 
In all those things our sexuality does not matter. You call us god, competent, love able, social, empathic, trustworthy. You see us, just as chaotic or structured as anybody else. As funny or earnest, stuffy and freethinking as someone else. Like a normal, lovely, obnoxious man with individual gifts and talents who is be needed. 
So this all is very normal... of course... nothing special but when it comes to marry and having own children, we suddenly turn into monsters..(?) Why?
Why is the love from a queer or transgender not worth the same? Why does it suddenly makes a difference? Is it we should be grateful for the confidence placed tolerance, like I once read? Isn't the real enemy of the marriage those who divorce, like I once read? I mean.. why should the homosexual undermine marriage? No - this is stupid and we in first sight are not begging for the equality in your churches. We just think it's time to wake up and be aware, that we naturally have the same rights in front of the law- so that should be given... I mean there are absolutely no important differences, that we should not be allowed to marry.. in fact I think, that to marry should be without the question of your sex. 
And by the way, all studies shows that children with gay parent aren't more gay later or suffer from having two mommies or daddies at home, like the most children have no bigger problems with having just a mom or a dad home, or their uncle is a parent for them...It's not what you have home, it's do you get love, understanding and help at home... the most suffer because people outside make them think they are not real, not god, not worth the same.. because of all those stupid prejudices. Like black children still suffer from those... and not because the parents are black.  All we love our children and have the same which and it is no more egoist from a queer to which a child then it is from a heterosexual. 
We all want the best for them. We all try to make it a better future for them and give them everything we have to make them feel god. 
Once again, children of queer do not become more often gay or lesbian then children who grow up on a grandmother, a father and a mother, or when their just with a mother or, ..or, or...

So do we really have to justify that we are the same happy, the same excited, unsure and proud like all other parents and that our child would get all of our love and support????

The truth is and was always.. we are family too... like you!
We already exist... and the way a family is today in so many parts of the world is so different, so untypical the "father, mother, child stereotype..." So how can anyone say the only real family for a child is this stereotype???!!!!
In each of these crazy and mixed families they cry, laugh, learn, teach, hold each others arms...sew, tinker and by presents... And I think of all those happy children ...but not where they come from... 
Like I once read.. it would be nice if one day this would be of no matter, because we are not alike, but equal. 

LOVE & LIGHT